Really sorry for the late reply, I’ve been meaning to but have had a very crazy December, work is killing me.
I can’t seem to pinpoint my triggers either, it just happens without me being conscious of it. That’s what I find the most frustrating, it basically lives within me. Maybe we don’t realise that our thoughts are subtly overriding us even though there’s no need for obvious panic about something?
Like you I have good weeks and bad weeks, the bad is very bad and the good is manageable at least. Recently I’ve been bad because I’m not happy at work at the moment, not sure I’m on the right career path etc. I’ve been trying to do rehab on my knee so I can play soccer this season and right now my muscles just don’t want to work they’re so tense and sore, which depresses me because I’m a 24 year old male that’s loved sport all his life.
My GP started me on a low dose of medication which seems to help keep my head clear and lift my mood up. It helps my physical symptoms slightly as well. It’s very expensive though which is annoying..
Coping mechanisms? This is a hard one..I don’t have many really..go for a walk by yourself, push everything away and take in the outdoors. Talk to people, seriously talk to people, friends, family etc, do catch up with your friends regularly. Rest when you feel like you’ve had a big day and are irritated. Take things slowly, don’t always tick at 100km/h. Try to think of things you’re looking forward to in the not too distant future like holidays etc if you have any planned.
I know it’s a massive battle when you’re feeling like you are, with all these symptoms happening but you need to stay on top of things because that downward spiral is disastrous and I don’t wish it on anybody.
Hope you’re doing alright?