Hi, this is my first time posting to these forums so hopefully I don't ramble too much.
I'm currently in year 12 and I suppose to an extent, it does not help that I'm under constant pressure in regards to SAC's (assessments), but recently I've been feeling as if I'm 'going crazy'.
It's hard to describe how I've been feeling other than just like everything has been out of control, and it's been at its worst this last week. Everything really started to spiral out of control during the COVID-19 isolation period which is when I first started experiencing panic attacks. These panic attacks were horrible at first, with the primary concern being a feeling of dissociation, or derealization to be more specific, whereby the world around me felts really hollow. It's something I cannot describe.
I've always had problems with searching stuff up online to try and self diagnose, and I suppose it all started to spiral when it came to my mind that I may be developing schizophrenia. I know it's highly improbably, and to this day I don't believe I am going to become schizophrenic, but recently there's been times where I analyse each and every thought as to assess whether or not I am doing stuff that the internet says may indicate schizophrenia.
Some of these symptoms include feeling like I'm seeing stuff in my peripheral vision, however I am sure that this is just my anxiety telling me that something is there, when it is not. Furthermore, I sometimes find myself smelling a smell such as smoke when there is no explanation, known as 'phantosmia', but I also believe this can be attributed to anxiety.
Another concern is a feeling that has come back to me. When I was young, during a period of flu I would rarely experience this feeling where the scale and weight of objects would feel strange and off to me. It happened when I closed my eyes and I felt like I could see shapes changing size which distressed me. However, recently during panic attacks, and potentially at times where I'm extremely tired, I feel this feeling again. It's the feeling of losing control that gets to me and I cannot shake it, recently I have dreaded this feeling coming back to me.
Anyways sorry for the long post, but I just want to know if anyone else has these experiences, and if i should be concerned.