Hello again peacock!
Great to hear you had a good week off!
wow, you have worked a very long time - no wonder you are feeling the way you do! I kinda know what you're feeling!
I'm only 33 - I've been in the same job for 10 years now. My job is pretty much a dead end job, no opportunities for advancement and no learning opportunities etc. I felt so stuck, worthless and felt like I was going no where but I clung onto the idea that once I hit 10 years I can go on a long holiday then look for another job! once i hit the 10 year mark, I started planning my holiday and getting really excited.
then COVID hit... freaking covid haha.
Thankfully with the work I had been doing with my psychologist, I was able to reframe my situation - My holiday isnt cancelled - its just postponed and although I do hate my job - I am thankful to have a job.
It sounds like your job stresses you out? is there anything in particular you find stressful about it? (only share if you feel like it)