As someone who suffered from depression for many years in the past, I would be the first to acknowledge that mental and physical health issues are not about letting people down. In fact, those who are conscious enough to want to raise a person in need, to greater heights, will see themselves raised to the challenge of doing so.
So, the question becomes 'Are those around you accepting the challenge of helping raise you or are they simply baring witness to your struggles?' If there is one thing I have learned after my experience in my depression, it's that sometimes we must request or even demand assistance in being raised in constructive ways. These days, if I'm feeling a little low or drained and unmotivated, I will challenge those around me to lift my spirits and motivate me because basically I believe this is how love works. Often, the most powerful form of love is...love in action.
You must learn to give yourself credit. You got yourself through the panic attacks which can be incredibly exhausting mentally, physically and naturally. You must admit, it takes a lot of effort to get through. So, if others don't appear to be doing anything proactive, you certainly are. Every time you experience such a challenge and are determined to get through or ride it out, you in fact are raising yourself to an incredible challenge (each time). Getting through the exhaustion is something that makes you undeniably amazing and courageous. Sounds like another challenge involves you becoming a bit of detective. Finding out why the anxiety and depression exist could be a part of your work. Also, finding ways to manage such conditions may lead you to mental health professionals or professionals who deal with natural therapies (conscious breathing, acupressure and so on). Personally, I've become a great devotee of shifting energy naturally and it serves me well in so many ways when it comes to self understanding.
Being a detective can prove for some to be a powerful and liberating experience. Are you ready to rise to this next challenge? If so, you can always ask a trusted friend or family member to help in your search. I suggest you pick someone who thrives on challenge to help you (this will speed up the process).
RedWolfe, you are far more powerful than the conditions that lead you to suffer :)