I have been living a life of hell for almost a year. It all started off after coming back from a trip. I was stressed before hand and stressed during and I came back almost to a break down. I've had the following
1- Extreme fatigue since august last year to the point where I need to sleep all day
2- I've ended up with a million different tests thinking I've contracted a virus. Nothing keeps showing up.
3- I developed massive ectopic beats almost 1500 a day confirmed by holter which sent me into a new panic and more testing. Heart MRI's stress tests etc... all again normal and no explanation for the extra beats.
4- I developed intolerance to standing up. MY heart just races when I stand and the ectopics go nuts.
5- Recently I've started with twitching everywhere especially my legs. They will not stop from the knees down. Its been this way for month now.
6- I then started to get internal vibrations whilst asleep in bed. I haven't had a proper night sleep in weeks. I just feel like my legs and body is trembling as soon as I start to doze off.
7- Now I have tinnitus in ears almost daily and wont stop.
8- I've been to 2 neurologist thinking and convinced I have ALS (motor neuron disease) from all the twitching.
9- I've started to notice my left calf muscle where all the twitching is is smaller than my right and this sent me into a total spiral drive about the above ALS issue, I'm waiting to get further testing to prove what it is.
10- I wake up every morning measuring the size of my calf for atrophy and I'm too scared to walk or run incase I feel weakness in one which will totally destroy me.
My mind is just going in circles all day. From ecoptics, to twitching, to tinnitus then I go back to ectopics and the loop goes over and over. The fatigue is almost debilitating.
doctors think t's all health anxiety and a breakdown caused by stress so they threw benzos at me. I took them for a few days by the symptoms did not go away. this sent me even more into a mental break down because I'm thinking in my head if thebenzos didn't help then there must be something seriously wrong ! I've seen a couple of phycologist who are all trying this CBT stuff but my brain just sees the physical symptoms and is basically telling itself you're too smart to be tricked by CBT.
I'm lost at the moment !the only think I'm able to do is dull the fatigue and symptoms with alcohol for brief periods of time to get me through the day
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.