Firstly, thanks for reaching out and welcoming you to the forums
If there's one thing I learnt about "recovery", is that it's never linear, no matter how much we want it to be. There will be days that will be "worse" than others, days that are "better" than others.
Well done on seeing a therapist too, we can learn so much from them, and it sure can be hard to be 'triggered' by some things when we share it with the therapist. I have been through that.
I want to share that I haven't been admitted to ED/mental health ward for over a year now (I think of this when I saw your thread topic). I have been diagnosed with Bipolar and I would say I'm 'recovering' well. I practice DBT skills everyday - especially mindfulness, opposite action and TIP skills the most - I would like to share. Like you said in terms of fully committing to recovery, I find it can be hard to stick with it - and there is some fear around it - which I feel is ok, as it's part of it. It takes time, it takes trial and error to see what works too.
I hope this helps?
Please don't be shy to write again.
Look forward to hearing from you.