Hi Jillian T
I am so proud you have reached out and there have been some wonderful posts of support to you.
I just wanted to add something and that is that there is nothing to be scared of, ill mental health is an illness and like a broken bone, with treatment and support you can and will get through this time. If you can channel that fear into strength to face this "what if's" with bravery and say "it is ok if I have depression as I will ask for help". It takes courage and strength and I think you have this. You also have a wonderful mother who will be apart of your team too.
I also wanted to say that there is a checklist here if you wanted to do it to help with some direction if you feel you may be struggling, it could also be helpful to start a conversation with your mum or a GP.
Once again, don't be fearful of the outcome, use it to gain knowledge and use it to ask for help.
I am proud you are seeking help, that is a great start Jillian T and we are here for you too.