Hello Dear Maxxy,
Have you spoken to the people who have been directly effected by your mistake....I’m sure they have forgiven you for making that mistake... you didn’t do it on purpose it was a mistake...
Many years ago..41yrs ago..I made the biggest mistake of my life, by trusting the people who were supposed to love me.....and the mistake I made, still today directly effects 3 people and many more branches of people that I love very dearly and it will do for the rest of their lives...and mine..
I still feel a lot of guilt and shame over my actions.... I know that I can’t undo these things...the 3 people that my mistake is directly effecting..has said that they forgive me....I have tried many times to forgive myself, but it’s something that I can’t do,,,,Knowing they have forgiven me has helped me to slowly move forward..and the guilt and shame that I have...isn’t as overwhelming as it was...
How do the people that are being effected by your mistake feel...have you spoken to them about how guilty and ashamed you feel...have they forgiven you? ...I really do hope that these people know that you didn’t intentionally do anything to hurt them,,,,
My kindest thoughts, Dear Maxy..