I’ve had anxiety ever since I was a child, and have been going to counseling off and on. It got a lot worse once I started Highschool, I ended up going on antidepressants. But the meds didn’t react well with me and ended up making my symptoms worse than they were before. I ended up missing almost all of year 9 because of it, it didn’t help that I was having friendship problems at the time. I was in a somewhat toxic friendship sigh this girl who was actually bullying me, it took me years to figure it out. I remember hiding in the toilets for almost 3 hours having a mental breakdown, they pulled my best friend out of class to try and find me. Eventually the school found me and it was one of the worst days of my life. The school made a plan for me, and my Mum ended up paying for me to go to school and eventually I was able to go back full time. Counseling was helping, and I was going good. But when it came starting year 10, it went down hill. I physically couldn’t leave the car to go in the school, I had such a bad panic attack I couldn’t see for an hour. Eventually my parents were like “enough” and that I would have to find a new way to do school. I was thinking about dropping out in year 10 as well. And that’s what I do now Distant Ed and it’s the best thing that’s happened. I have been able to do my school work to a better degree then I have before. And I was able to stay close to my friends and hang out with them regularly. It was a great year. Now I am going into year 11 and I have no stress until now. I am doing a Tafe course as well as my regular schooling, and I honestly can’t cope. I don’t think I will be able to go, and I know you need to try new things, but I haven’t been able to sleep because of it. I honestly don’t know if I can keep going through these up and downs in my life. Will this still happen as I get older? Will this affect my chances of getting jobs? Will this affect me when I start a family of my own? I don’t know how much more I can take, and I don’t know how much more my family can take, especially my mum. What should I do?