You may have seen me around a little bit, so I will just give a brief synopsis with an update. I am in a toxic abusive house and I have to be moved out by end of next week due to housemates cutting lease in the middle of a pandemic. I am moving back to my home state with family who refuse to acknowledge my (diagnosed) mental disorders and have been abusive in the past.
Now onto the update.
I have bad swelling in one of my feet and I went to see a doctor today. She said I have (likely) blood clotting around my foot which is obviously very dangerous.
So now within the next week I have to move all the things out of my room and into the removalist area, get someone to help me put unsold furniture on the curb for hard rubbish collection, pack my car up and get that taken to the removalist, book flights, quit my job, somehow get rid of all the rubbish in my room (tips are closed now for general public and my housemates keep filling the bin before I can put anything in there just to be difficult), go get a scan on my foot and a follow up with a doctor, all the while wearing a mask and following COVID protocols that are literally changing every day.
I'm not sleeping well, I'm not eating well, my anxiety is through the roof every second of every day and I don't know how I am supposed to get all of this done alone. I also don't have much money (my job was a casual minimum hour shift once a week) and, with my foot, struggle to walk without being in pain. I don't know how I am going to do this and am terrified and scared of this fast arriving deadline that seems to be getting more and more anxiety inducing every day. I am trying my best to take things one day at a time but I'm really struggling with even that concept. Now with the added anxiety of possible blood clots in my foot which is very dangerous, I feel overwhelmed by anxiety and don't want to do absolutely anything at all, which is in turn making my anxiety worse because the day keeps getting closer with not much more happening.