I have spoken to my PDr about what happens when I am anxious, me trying to understand what is happening in the moments, and he says, at times, I am panicking. I trust he knows what he's talking about, but for me, I wonder if I am 'losing the plot', showing signs of some sort of dementia. Later, maybe, but surely not at my current age.
Sometimes, WHEN, I am quietly 'panicking', I am confused: I forget what day it is, what I am supposed to be doing, and don't comprehend well what is said to me. & I'll forget things I needed to remember. Things are moving too fast. I'm so nervous, & don't feel comfortable enough to ask for a break or to slow down. Taking notes is not at all convenient for me, and I am too flustered.
So, the words I have here:
& when I leave, I feel incapable; failure; lost.