I can't sleep and my brain is thinking negative thoughts again, this time it's all the stupid things I've done at work, for example even though I know what I can lift and what I can't, I keep on lifting stuff or doing things a different way (things that don't have a procedure, of course) and people "go off" at me for lifting (due to osh) Then I get annoyed at myself for doing it, why, why! I try to say something positive about it but they just look at me as if I have two heads. This is what my brain is saying.
No one at work seems to make any mistakes and even when I interpret something my brain seems to not get it and gets it wrong.
I feel as if my common sense has gone and I can't do anything right and they think I'm stupid.
And I'm being too self asorbed and this is wasting my life by worrying about it and I'm not enjoying my life or being grateful for what I have,
And there are terrible things happening in the world and I'm still worrying about trivial things.
Though it's 4:14am and the thoughts always come around this time.
Thank you for allowing me to rant.
It is frustrating, I want this to go, and when I am having an anxiety attack, I have to go through it, I can't seem to calm myself down, once I exhaust myself than I feel better and it finally leaves.