I’m very new to this community and this is my first time posting on the forums. I guess I just need to get a weight off my chest as I haven’t got many people to talk to.
I‘m 29 and have been suffering from anxiety on and off pretty much since I was a teenager. I have never sort professional help as my anxiety has stopped me from reaching out, although I came very close last year. My own mental health issues have often been eclipsed by that of family members who have actual diagnosed illnesses and so mine appear lesser. I often feel I take on their issues while mine fall by the wayside.
Today I was made redundant from my workplace due to COVID-19, something I could sense coming, although it still came as a shock. For the last couple of years I have absolutely hated working there, however my fear of change and anxiety to job search stopped me from moving on.
I have developed severe social anxiety over these last couple of years due to the work environment, a place that favors extroversion and confidence to actual dedicated and hard working employees. I often felt ostracized and lonely due to the social cliques that formed around me.
Although I can see that this is somewhat of a blessing in disguise, I am now faced with the prospect of looking for work during this time of minimal job openings. As well as the prospect of having to navigate job interviews with my social anxiety. My anxiety levels are tittering on the very edge and I feel extremely lost and alone.
I’m so hurt that I’m not valued as an employee or colleague and can’t help but feeling worthless and alone. It feels as if all the niggling suspicions in my mind have been actualized.
Just looking for some advice or tips on how to move forward from this in a positive light?