It's OKAY to be emotional, gosh, you'd have to be a robot NOT to be after a break up like this.
Crying it out helps, apparently it releases endorphins which are feel good hormones... well it has to come out some way, so may as well have a cry!
It's crappy but you're gonna be OKAY!
I'm doing really well considering some shocking news last week.
I can feel the anxiety creeping in and some times tears too when I talk about it... it's an unchangeable event so the only things left for me to do is practise acceptance and strengthen myself to support my friends.
I know you're very young, and I know this was your first serious relationship... so this could be a premature concept I'm offering, but I really want to tell you now, so that it might linger in your thoughts somewhat over time...
ex will never know anything, nor care about anything but itself.
ex doesn't have the capacity to care.
Nothing you do from now on, will have nothing to do with ex.
THIS is the truest most basest form of No Contact.
NC meaning zero.
ie NO FB stalking, no asking others about whether they've seen him, politely stopping the conversation IF anyone brings ex up..
Even to use thoughts of ex in some attempts at motivation is baseless really...
EVERYTHING you do is ALL about YOU.
My trick I made up years ago when I was separated from my 2nd husband (with all our children 100% in my care)... was I IMAGINED a HUGE TALL 4ft thick concrete block wall all around myself and the kids...
any time exH popped into my head, I visualised him going over the wall!
OUTSIDE my mind.
OUTSIDE my sphere of caring.
just O-U-T out!
It worked well for me!
That was c30y ago... clearly I didn't share that exercise with HIM!
He asked many questions about me, desperately, just last Christmas!
Pffft my kids flipped all the questions off lol. Said I was engaged to a wealthy American man who's GORGEOUS and will move to the U.S. to marry him one day (LOL!). "Mum's off the market" they said hahaha.
Well that's all either true or possible lol.
Onwards and UPwards PF and if neither of those are possible in the moment then sitting with your own feelings is healing too.
SO getting HIM out of my head stood me on firm ground to focus on my career, further studies, promotions and purchasing stacks of property lol.