Firstly, thank you for having the courage to reach out to us. We know it's a hard thing to do and we applaud ou for it.
"I've had a pretty rough start to the year, and can’t seem to get my head above water to regular myself".
Doesn't sound very good at all you poor thing. Perhaps if you were to give us a quick recap of what's happened to make you feel this way, we can better help you deal with it.
"I find that I’m not managing my friendships or professional relationships and think the longer I interact the worse it’s going to get".
Okey dokey, first of all, have you spoken to your GP? He/she is usually the best first call to make. You can talk in confidence and they can quite often get you back on the right track? I'd really strongly suggest you reach out to them. Secondly, what makes you think you're miss-managing these personal and professional relationships and why do you think their getting worse?
"I reset, think, right I can get this back on track. Then I act, and find out I have made the situation worse, and it continues on happening".
Stopping, thinking and re-setting is a great way to re-focus and I'd encourage you to keep trying this technique. Can you tell me of an occasion when it made things worse? It'd help me better understand.
You talked of running, hiding and stopping the pain. I'm assuming you're talking about mental stress and the pain caused by anxiety? Or do you have physical injuries you're coping with?
"It’s adults I can’t relate to. Those that have agendas, and seem to follow a different set of rules that I don’t know about".
It sounds as though you've had poor past experiences with people. Are you able to give me an example? Are we talking about relationships or people generally?
You're not alone, please understand that. we're all here to help you and together we'll get through this.
Please come back to me with your thoughts.
And here's a big HUG to help you through tonight.
Your friend Rumples xoxo