it feels super strange to be writing this, I think by writing on here I’m looking for others who suffer from ocd to tell me they experience the same things, to perhaps make me feel better. I don’t know.
i want to start off with saying I have never been to the doctor or spoken to anyone about this, so don’t have an official diagnosis.
The ocd like “traits” started when I was in grade 3 or 4
over the years the things I do have changed, I’ve stopped some and kept others and added some
things includes checking doors are locked before going to bed, checking the stove is turned off, then checking it again and again until it feels right
touching something and counting until it feels right. Checking rubbish before I put it in the bin a million times in case I’m throwing something out.
moving my head, sort of nodding etc as I think over things in my head
that is one I’m really conscious of and worried people can see. If they do notice I just play it off but it’s one that I’ve continued with over time.
my worry is that I get headaches from it sometimes, sometimes my ear blocks, behind my eye hurts.
im just worried I’m doing something to my head?
has anyone else experienced this before?
i know it is stress/ anxiety related as when I’m stressed out the things I do get way worse and I have to “redo “ things over and over until it feels right way more.
im not sure if I should seek help or not.
this is the first time I’ve ever done anything like this.
thanks for those that read this far and for those that may be able to let me know if they have felt this way.