A very warm welcome to the Beyond Blue Forums..
We are so pleased that you reached out here..We know that it is hard to make your first post..well done..
Paul...I am so pleased that you want to get help for yourself..
I can hear in your words the love you have for your beautiful fiancé....and that she has help you some..
Struggling with mental health is so hard to “fix” ourself without professional help...You have taken a huge step posting here..I’m wondering if you could take another huge step and reach out to your gp...they are very understanding with mental health and will set you up on a mental health Care Plan....where you will get I think 10 sessions with a psychologist who can help you towards your journey to wellness....
I used to think that no one or nothing would help me...I was wrong, having a trained person to talk you through your struggling helps so much...You could if you wanted to (it’s up to you) also have your beautiful fiancé go with you...to help her to understand your struggling and learn with you different coping strategies....If it’s too hard to talk about your feeling..you can also if it feels better for you...write out on a piece of paper your feelings, thoughts ect and hand it to your GP or once a MHCP has been organised..you could hand it to your psychologist....It’s very hard the first appointment but so very worth it..
We /you can get peace and have a wonderful life with you fiancé...Not being around any longer, isn’t the answer... It causes so much devastation to the ones left behind..it’s the pain you want to end..not your life..
Please Paul..I’m urging you so much to reach out to your GP....it really is worth it...You have a wonderful life ahead of you...with your fiancé...
Talk here anytime you feel up to it dear Paul...many others will pop in from time to time to chat with you..their are so many people here who are going through similar struggles..you are not alone...we are here to try to guide you, Talk you through the feeling and struggling your going through..
Kind thoughts with care..