Hey so I’ve been going through a bout of anxiety and some depression for the past few months, I am seeing a psychologist for it but Havnt been able to for a few weeks due to the holiday period.
i get random outbursts of extreme restlessness, sometimes it feels like my mind won’t shut off and it feels like I’m about to lose control, the depression has now caused me to lose interest in so many things, it’s so hard for me to just be external and live life, I’m always thinking about my scenario.
ive been doing meditation almost everyday and trying to keep busy socialising with friends and playing sport, anything to stop me thinking about my anxiety! To just get out of my head!
ive tried this new activity where I accept these intrusive thoughts and moments of intense anxiety or random feelings of restlessness, sadness, Derealization rather than pushing them away, understanding why or even challenging them.
it’s worked pretty well for me the past few days, they are still there but it’s a lot nicer when you don’t get so wound up in it all, i was having a pretty good day today kept busy, took some time to relax, I went down to the shop And as I was pulling in a sudden feeling of like a slight sadness and Like a detached feeling? Hard to describe but anyway nothing new, I rode this wave pretty good just told myself it’s okay to feel like this and kept on with my day, but when I got home the feeling stuck around and for some reason this time saying ‘it’s okay’ and accepting the feelings just wasn’t working it started to feel like I wasn’t in control anymore and I just became restless and sad and yeh I don’t even know how to describe it other then it didn’t feel like I was in control anymore, I tried to ground myself and do some meditation, the restlessness went away but I still didn’t feel right all night, I went to see some friends hoping I could snap out of it and feel some sense of calm but had no luck, when these things happen I get stuck obsessing trying to make sense of how I felt and why, it takes a hold of me and sends me a few steps backwards.
Does anyone else here ever feel anything similar? Is that anxiety or something else?
alot of the time I don’t think myself into these situations I just get thrown into them or these intrusive thoughts get thrown at me it’s like my sub conscious is the one that’s freaking out