Hello Pinkandgrey, a warm welcome to the forums and thanks for coming to the site and hope you are able to feel comfortable talking with us.
When you suddenly wake up during the night, just remember that whatever you have been thinking about, try and push it aside because you can't physically do anything at that precise time to rectify that particular situation, so turn the radio on and listen to some music, taking some deep breaths.
Can I ask you a question, and only answer if that's what you want to do, have you had any thoughts about moving out of your parents home and into your own flat/house or rent?
It's good to talk with other people who have been through similar or other types of depression, people you don't know and don't know who they are, sometimes this makes communicating much easier, while others prefer talking face to face with another person, it all depends on how you want to talk.
Sometimes different ideas are raised by the online forums that may make you think and then discuss with people you might want to talk to, just to get their ideas, doesn't matter all of this is good.
Hope to hear back from you.