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Topic: Scared of "trivial, everyday" things

  1. Moonstruck
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    20 August 2018

    Does anyone else share this irrational, stupid, inconvenient anxiety? It doesn't happen all the time but when it does I cannot explain it or know what to do, to get rid of it. It will sound comical, laughable when I tell you but that's OK...it sounds funny to me also. I will start by saying there are certain situations I am active in, at which I exel, where the majority of folk would be terrified. I am brilliant there...and yet scared of this "little stuff" .

    For months I was frightened of going to a different petrol station nearby. Prices went sky high at most places in my town, and this one was cheaper, popular, accessible and an obvious choice and for months I put off going there...because I was scared of it. Which bowser should I pull up at? Which buttons do I push to key in the dollars I want?. What if there is a big queue?...so I eventually had to ask a neighbour (who is familiar with anxiety problems) to go with me, just to sit beside me and quietly tell me what to do. Otherwise I would never have "mastered the petrol station"!

    Yesterday i bought a new vacuum cleaner. It was a good price, I am pleased with it, I want to use it asap and need to use it. I look forward to using it. I am scared to get it out of the box. What if I can't understand the instructions in the manual? It's different from my last one. see how stupid it sounds? I am scared of my vacuum cleaner!!!!

    and yet if you could see what I achieved just recently in a specialised field...you would be amazed at my competency and confidence!!!

    WHY am I scared of these trivial everyday things? God knows how long it will take for me to begin assembling that vacuum cleaner which I know, logically, I am intelligent enough to figure out!! So why am I procrastinating about it?

    What is wrong with me? Who could help me? Any suggestions or thoughts would be very welcome......have a nice day..... Moonstruck.

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  2. Doolhof
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    20 August 2018 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hey Moonstruck,

    You have just described how I feel at times but I have never put it down to anxiety! Before I forget, can your neighbour help you with your vacuum cleaner? Invite them in for a coffee and a vacuum cleaner assembly session.

    I have an appointment somewhere new. My mind is telling me, what if I can't find the place? Which door do I need to go in? Who is going to be in the waiting room? What chair do I sit on while I am waiting? Should I look in a magazine or just sit here? How to I approach the specialist? What do I call them?

    I go to the supermarket. Where should I park? Is this trolley going to roll properly for me? What if I can't find what I am looking for? How do I ask a staff member to help me locate something? What if my groceries fall off the check out counter? What happens if I forget my pin number?

    Why do our brains take us on such ridiculous journeys? Why to do we worry about all this small stuff? What is it saying about ourselves?

    Maybe for me it is more due to a lack of self esteem and confidence regarding doing something different and new. Maybe it is a sense of uncertainty and a feeling of not being in control.

    Who knows. I agree with you though Moonstruck it can be crazy getting so worked up about the small things in life.

    All the best with the vacuum cleaner!

    Cheers from Dools

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  3. Moonstruck
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    20 August 2018 in reply to Doolhof

    Thank you Mrs D.....yes I can relate to your own fears too...I am not quite that frightened of the supermarket I must say..but I totally get the new waiting room, where to sit, which door to go in....I had to go to a different medical place recently too...and it helped to look at the other patients and wonder to myself " I bet some, or even quite a few of you are unsure of yourselves too."

    Knowing how widespread "anxiety" is in our modern world (in my mother and grandma's day they called it "nerves").....more folk than we realise are frightened and feeling shaky behind their outwardly confident, well dressed and groomed appearances. We would probably be surprised just who is scared of all this stuff too...well I hope we are not alone anyway! take care....Moon S

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  4. Birdy77
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    20 August 2018 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hello Moon and Dools,

    I can totally relate to everything you both said.

    Dools I get nervous about the tokens in the trolleys because the other day I went to put my trolley back, I had a big (deep) trolley, and some nong before me had put a shallow trolley in the deep trolley area, so my deep trolley wouldn't nestle into the shallow trolley in front, so the chain for the token thing wouldn't reach, and I couldn't get my token back! Catastrophe! Some kind stranger helped by putting their token in the shallow trolley and moving it for me, otherwise I might still be there.

    Moon I was telling you, I can't bear to open up my internet banking and see how much the bank has charged me in interest because I let the balance in my mortgage offset account go below a certain level. It will be a matter of very little $$ but I just cannot bring myself to do it. I tried the other day, I had my fingers covering my eyes as the website loaded. The page was down for maintenance ... I was so relieved. So I still haven't tried again ...

    I have a document, that I paid for, which will help me save literally thousands of dollars in tax, and I can't open it. I will force myself to when it comes to doing my tax, but it would help for me to open it and print it out now. I can't.

    So annoying.

    🌻birdy

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  5. Moonstruck
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    20 August 2018 in reply to Birdy77
    Dearest Birdy...next time you are sitting at the keyboard, scared to open the tax and banking documents...feel me right there next to you..speaking calmly and taking you through the steps one by one until it's all sitting there, on the screen, quite harmless, it can't hurt you, it's right there, waiting to give you the information you want to read....isn't that great!! right there at your fingertips....don't worry, I'll be right there with you. We'll read the documents together...let me know when you're ready..... x
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  6. quirkywords
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    20 August 2018 in reply to Moonstruck

    moon,

    what a great thread.

    Where do I start this is just a small of my long list.

    Dont like talking on the phone

    put off tax so it is always late and I get extra time as I have an accountant

    build up worrying about things so something silly like asking a shop to put up a poster for a charity makes me leave it till last minute

    i am scared of hairdressers and often come out with a cut I don’t like

    ok that’s a start. nothing wrong with you at all.

    I taughtat a school where there two photocopiers and people would line up rather than use the other one!!

    Quirky

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  7. Moonstruck
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    21 August 2018 in reply to quirkywords

    Oh goodness...it's quite enlightening to see the other things people are "afraid" of. I wonder what instilled this into our psyches...was it the generation perhaps...inherited from our parents/grandparents ...I thought the thread would be a waste of space and boring to others.

    Hey, after posting all my fears yesterday and receiving some nice replies here and on my own thread...I did actually assemble the new cleaner...haven't used it yet..but hey...baby steps??

    Perhaps it was the simple act of voicing (or writing) my silly fear and having it received without ridicule but understanding, that enabled me to actually achieve it.

    Tomorrow I will have a go at using it! Thanks for sharing Quirky.

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  8. Doolhof
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    21 August 2018 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hi Everyone,

    I just had a thought! Wouldn't it be wonderful if we could all feel comfortable to express what we don't deal with, instead of maybe thinking we need to keep it to ourselves.

    Maybe we would feel better knowing other people might not be coping as well as we think they are.

    If I let someone know I hate computers they may be able to help me overcome my fears and trepidations.

    A bit like the kind person who helped birdy with the trolley!

    I wonder how many people in the supermarket go without items that are on a shelf that is higher than they can reach because they don't feel comfortable asking someone to help them?

    Maybe we can all be a little more aware of others around us and see how we may be able to assist them, there fore building up our own self esteem and sense of value.

    Wishing you all a day where you feel more empowered than you did yesterday!

    Cheers all from Dools

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  9. Deliver
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    I know how you feel, as part if my ocd/anxiety, I feel urge to avoid certain trivial tasks. Different to the types of things you mentioned, if I waited for others to help me do things, I'd hardly ever get anything done. I rarely ask anyone to help with daily type tasks. But I procrastinate and can get very anxious about doing small things. I think it's best to just confront that feeling, as continuously asking for help with things you can do, reinforces this type of anxiety. If you gradually make yourself do the tasks that feel a bit daunting, you become more desensitized over time.

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  10. Deliver
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    22 August 2018 in reply to Moonstruck

    Things that make me anxious and make me feel avoidant are:

    Going to work/thinking about going to work the next day

    Certain errands (depends on day/mood)

    Dealing with computer issues/backing up anything

    Starting university assignments or working on them at all made me feel very anxious and avoidant

    Appointments especially dentist

    Knowing I have to clean the house sometimes makes me feel like that

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  11. Moonstruck
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    23 August 2018 in reply to Deliver

    Thanks for your input here Deliver. Dental fear is very common...I have it, mostly due to the traumas with teeth I went thru as a child, when dental care wasn't as advanced as it is now...and was always very very painful. I make sure the dentist knows I have this fear and won't go back to one who doesn't take extra care to be gentle.

    Computer stuffups cause me mega stress too....and I also can relate to the "going to work next day" feeling. So we are not as "alone" in this as we thought. You sound as if you are a real "procrastinator"...which I am too...does anyone have the magic answer to stop procrastinating??

    If so, Deliver and I need to know...it's holding us back from our own brilliant capabilities!!! I guess you have never jumped out of a plane?? Me either. With our procrastinating, we'd be up there all day!!

    In case anyone is interested....I have used the new vacuum cleaner...it knows what it's doing, better than I do!

    Also got petrol at the station I was frightened of for ages yesterday....what a breeze!! Easy-peasey!

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    9 September 2018 in reply to Moonstruck

    Dear Moon and everyone,

    I am not sure what happened, I thought I had replied here ages ago, but it's not here now so ... sorry for that, because Moon, your gentle reply brought tears to my eyes and the very next day I held your words close whilst I bravely opened up the mortgage account. Guess how much interest I had been charged? Zero dollars! No dollars whatsoever! I must have calculated wrongly. Such a relief! But mostly it was so comforting to read your words and imagine you sitting with me. Thank you Moon. I am not yet ready for the other document. Will you sit with me again?

    I liked what Dools said above about being more open about our vulnerabilities and realising that others have theirs too. I think it's a bit of a key into our shared humanness (the word is probably humanity, but my word captures what I want more clearly for me). I read something recently about the idea that we can't reach courage except through vulnerability, which makes a lot of sense in this context.

    Deliver, I am the Queen of Procrastination, so I completely understand. I remember putting off uni assignments because I hadn't read every single piece of research ever written on any given subject, so I obviously couldn't start the assignment until I had done so. For a measly 1000 word essay I sometimes had read 30 scholarly articles and taken an arch lever file full of notes. So silly.

    I think procrastination, for me, comes from my ingrained sense of fear of being criticised, thanks to an overly critical father who bred this unhealthy perfectionism in my brain as a little girl. I am learning to assure that little girl that we can do things imperfectly and that's ok.

    John Steinbeck said " and now that you don't have to be perfect, you can be good."

    🌻birdy

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  13. Moonstruck
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    9 September 2018 in reply to Birdy77

    Yes Birdy of course I will sit with you again, to read the next document....that is a great achievement reading the first mortgage one...and even a feeling of "relief" for you after you had done so!! well done you!!

    No, that's not a little thing...that's a big thing, being able to achieve "relief" not everyone can do it.

    Let me know when you want to open the next one...I'll be right there!

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  14. Moonstruck
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    12 September 2018 in reply to Moonstruck

    Yes I've got another one. Along with the new vacuum cleaner, the fear of which prompted me to begin this thread...(I have mastered that one) I also got a steam mop ( had been having trouble cleaning tiles in bathroom etc and it was an excellent sale price).

    After weeks of sitting in its box...I was game enough to read the manual to assemble it. To my horror, a tiny screw was included and I had to screw two bits together...(don't have the right size screwdriver, naturally). I bundled it into the car, took it over to a neighbour who did it for me.....

    now its assembled, hopefully correctly...and sitting there waiting for me to use it....aargh! the girl in the shop demonstrated one.."just pop some water in, turn it on and away you go"....smooth as silk! It made a noise as the steam came out...looked far too complicated and dangerous to me.

    Never had one before...scared of my steam mop! Any advice....??

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    12 September 2018 in reply to Moonstruck

    Dear Moon,

    Well done taking it over to the neighbour. Job done.

    How about we put some water in that thing together, it's ok, there should be a little plastic jug with a narrow spout so the water will not spill too much. Then we'll plug it in and wait a few minutes for it to heat up. It will make a yucky noise, but that's ok because I've put on some nice calm music for us to mop to. Once the steam is coming out, let's just use that baby in the bathroom.

    It will be ok.

    Ready?

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  16. Moonstruck
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    17 November 2018 in reply to Birdy77

    It's a long time since I wrote about being scared of the steam mop. Now I like it and the result it gives....heres my next one...

    I have to ring my Computer Support team to talk me through a simple operation. (well I hope it's simple, that's why I'm scared I guess...scared of the unknown. I am not really I.T. smart). I have the number, know the times they are open, have already got a I.D. number to quote with the task I need listed.....and I can call whenever I like.....sounds easy hey? Nothing to be scared of? Then why am I?

    well, let's see what's the worst that could happen: the support person could be rude and nasty to me (unlikely) I might not explain what I need properly.....(that's their job to help me isn't it?) they might laugh at me when they find out how old my computer is....(so what??)......I might be bothering them at a busy time (that's Their problem.) I am trying to remember I am a client, an owner of their product, they want me to call, they gave me their number and my customer I.D to call..

    .someone Please tell me why I am scared of trivial stuff like this? I really need, (not joking here)..I really really need to conquer this...or is it a part of Anxiety I am going to suffer from forever for the rest of my life??? Please help here???

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  17. Moonstruck
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    17 November 2018 in reply to Moonstruck

    I seem to have wasted everyone's time but appreciate the chance to vent here...sorry...I did ring them and the girl, based in Sydney was lovely, very patient and helpful...I could understand everything she said...and the outcome seems to have been successful.

    So.....I managed. It took ages and I could feel myself getting a bit anxious as time went on so much.......but I know this sort of thing will happen again in the future.

    with me being scared of such everyday things that others don't give a toss about...they just do it!! I want to eradicate this fear from my life completely.....when there are so many big big things to "fear" in this world today, this must mean I am a weak cry-baby...... are others scared of little everyday things...or just me?

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  18. aeliapulcheria
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    9 January 2019 in reply to Moonstruck

    I'm a little late to the party, and I unfortunately don't have the answers for you Moon, but I thought I'd let you know some of the little things I fear too so you're not alone.

    I have the frustrating, stupid problem that I fear the everyday things, but have no issues with issues I should actually worry about, if I was a normal person. Do a speech or debate? Hardly any nerves at all. Act on stage? I'm fine (if I'm prepared). Job interviews are fine for me. It's like I'm ok when I'm playing a "role" I guess.

    Things I am terrified of:

    - Going to work (every single day) and looking stupid somehow

    - Greeting people or even talking to people I know... so I stay at home a lot in my spare time

    - Talking on the phone. Massive problem for me in my current job

    - Going to the same stores near my house and becoming a 'regular' i.e. I'll have to make familiar conversation with the people that work there every time I go in, so I stop going to those places after a while

    - Hanging out with my friends and saying the "wrong" thing in my mind. I can think about this stuff for days afterward

    - Simple tasks like ringing up the bank to close my accounts, I put them off forever (at least 5 years now)

    I'm currently sitting at my work desk, heart racing for no apparent reason at all. So you're not a weak cry-baby, there must be heaps of us out there feeling the same, putting on a brave face and just struggling through it all!

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  19. Elizabeth CP
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    9 January 2019 in reply to aeliapulcheria

    I've only just found this thread. I struggle asking for help. What if the person is busy, They might think I'm pressuring them, They'll think I'm stupid, They might refuse & the I'll feel worse. When my husband was well & my children at home I could get them to help with things I need. Now my children are married so I don't want to be a nuisance & disturb them when they are busy! My husband is blind 7 has other serious health issues so I can't rely on him. I need some work done by the plumber. He was supposed to get some parts fabricated before coming back but now I'm scared to ring him to check because I don't want to be a nuisance.

    On monday my washing machine wasn't working. I ended up flooding the laundry trying to get the cloths out of the full machine (front loader) it just kept filling & then overflowing but not washing. I went out fpor several hours to calm down before returning. I tried reading the whole instruction manual to find out what to do. I kind of ot it working but I'm unsure. I'm dreading the next time I have to wash in case it happens again but I can't face ringing a repair person. Either I'll look stupid for ringing when I didn't need to or I'll find out it can't be repaired so I've wasted his time. We have a gardener funded by my husband's NDIS plan but I feel anxious about asking him to come thinking he'll think I'mm ripping off the system or I'mm useless or something.

    My brother offered to take me out on his boat but I'm too scared to ring And ask him when we are going because he might think I'm being pushy!!

    Anything new with technology I struggle with. Someone gave my husband an I phone to try bt I don't know how to use it & I'm really stressed about needing to help my husband learn to use it It reminds me of everything I've ever failed in trying to do. Of course any successes are irrelevant I only remember the failures!!!!

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  20. Moonstruck
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    12 January 2019 in reply to Elizabeth CP

    Your story really resonates with me Elizabeth. I know exactly how you feel. I could almost have written that myself.....you described me very well. I can elaborate further but exhausted after a long trip away........but gee, I certainly do understand exactly what you mean in this situation......

    Nice when someone understands , I always think......take care...Moonstruck

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    12 January 2019 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hey Moon!

    I hear you loud and clear on this one...seriously. I have a serious problem where DIY is concerned.....It scares the hell out me.....I thought I was the only one that suffered from this weird mindset. I dont mind wiring up home theatre systems yet putting a basic DIY flat pack bookshelf together can make me shiver...ugh!

    All the best for 2019 too Moon :-)

    Paul

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  22. Moonstruck
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    12 January 2019 in reply to blondguy

    Hey BlondGuy.......have you heard positive things about the Mindspot online course? I begin one at the end of January....did their assessment...several categories came up Severe and I agree I do need some help here..."my" therapist there rang me and I felt comfortable talking on the phone with her. I believe it entails about 4 hours a week to "do" things...I don't know for sure what they are...but was honest in the assessment questions and I know I really have to do something about this.

    Online may work better than face to face for me...because of my excellent ability to "act" in that situation...I end up being any character, any role they seem to want....anyone but myself. Because if I were myself I'd come across as a cry-baby...whinging about nothing.

    I can't trust myself not to put on the facade in the face to face situation...I do it with my GP all the time, sharing jokes and my witty observances, we have a great old laugh!! (see what I mean) anyway I digress...my query is has anyone had experience with the Mindspot courses?...Good to hear from you Paul.....xo

  23. Moonstruck
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    15 March 2019 in reply to Moonstruck

    Well..here I am again. Scared of doing these three things that I WANT to do for MYSELF! Yes they are what I want to get for myself asap.....and God knows how long, if ever I will actually give them to myself.

    1. I took the first step and went into the Phone Shop with questions about what SmartPhone would suit my needs, price, plans etc. (I don't have one at all!) Said I would be back next week to purchase...hooray, I have been promising this to myself for AGES.... Will I go back and get it? I am scared. Scared of choosing the wrong one. Scared of misunderstanding the figures she told me and scared I will not know how to use it when I get home.

    2. have decided to get new floor coverings in my very small bathroom. Know what I want and it certainly needs doing. I will feel so much better when it is done...it's a necessity, not a luxury. But I haven't. I am scared of choosing the wrong colour, wrong floor covering store (they may be cheaper elsewhere), scared of what the man putting it down will think of my tatty little bathroom, what if it's not clean enough?

    3. Want and need pull down sofa/bed in spare room. have the space, have thrown out the old broken one. I am scared of going to the wrong 2nd hand furniture place (we have some good ones here and can't afford a brand new one) , scared of not measuring the space properly, (what if I get it home and it doesn't fit?)

    These are 3 things that are so easy for others to accomplish. I want to give myself these things. The only thing standing in my way of organising these things for myself is "fear". I am ashamed to admit this....please share with me if you understand and perhaps have similar fears...thanks....

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  24. Paw Prints
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    16 March 2019 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hello Moonstruck,

    This thread really resonates with me. Here are my top 3:

    You have done better than me in the "getting a new phone steps". My old phone is so old it's a flip top that doesn't have internet. The battery is now so old it's not holding charge for very long so I really need to get a new one, yet when I go into town I never seem to find the time to go to the shop to find one.

    I moved here 4 years ago, being a rural property it is to big for a standard mower so I need a ride on (I'm paying a chap to mow it but really can't afford to keep doing so the savings are nearly gone). Getting a ride on means I also need to get a trailer to get it home & to take it for maintenance. 4 Years on still trying to go & get one, feel like an idiot, I have never towed anything so lots of nerves about doing it & about how to get the mower on & off the trailer.

    I bought a dehydrator to make dog training treats so I would know what was in them. It's still in the box 1 year on. I know it's silly. I know it doesn't matter if I don't get it right 1st time. Yet it still sits unopened.

    Like you I'm mostly scared of getting the wrong thing for my needs. Not being able to use it comes in 2nd.

    It's nice to know I'm not alone in putting things that need to be done off.

    Paw Prints

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  25. Moonstruck
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    17 March 2019 in reply to Paw Prints

    Thanks for sharing that. I had been thinking I must be the only person who is like this. I understand completely about your mower and your dog treats...fully get it!!

    Someone in my "mature aged" age group, also very intelligent, smart person was discussing this with me saying they are similar, especially when it comes to technology which is moving faster and faster.

    He said it may have to do with our school days many years ago, right from primary where we were not encouraged to "explore, see what works, try another way, experiment" etc....but rather "get it right". No wrong answers were allowed, in fact punished. Our result had to be a "tick" not a "cross". anything less than a "right" was regarded as failure.

    I even have a note to myself on my fridge, to try and remind me that no one cares if I "push the wrong button the first time". No one gives a damn if I could have gotten the item cheaper at another store!!

    There is no teacher, parent, policeman looking over my shoulder making sure I get it right.

    My note says "Moonstruck, WHO'S LOOKING?"..

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  26. Paw Prints
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    17 March 2019 in reply to Moonstruck

    I think your friend is right about we mature aged folk. It's the "getting it right" & "not being a bother" that's the problem. I have no problem asking for help to get items from the top shelf in shops, but will walk every aisle multiple times before asking for help to locate an item & I struggle to ring the plumber to see when he is coming back because I don't want to be a nuisance.

    Love your note on the fridge idea, maybe the note needs added to it a list of "well I got '.....' wrong & the world didn't end" to remind us it's OK to get it wrong sometimes.

    Paw Prints

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  27. Spitfire1
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    17 March 2019 in reply to Paw Prints
    hi everyone I totally feel your fears and hey it has taken me this long even to post here, I have looked @ this subject time and time again in the past and now I finally have the gumption to chat wwhhooww? a feeling of a little relief here. It's funny my therapist asked me this week this question-'What is your biggest fear" It probably took me a full 5 minutes to answer her in hope that she would move on to other area, well she did'nt sat there patiently waited so I had to tell her and I started by stuttering the answer(damn) my fear is facing the people that are inside my head and believing that they are outside my head talking to me, the ones that I supposedly trust and should take notice of and answer to, reality check! And when certain ones pick on me having the balls to stand up to them and tell them all to go to hell literally big laugh that I do that! With this fear to deal with I feel I have no piece of mind happening and that frightens me as I do not know what is happening to me any more I feel like a big scaredy cat at 58 years young. When I go and do a simple thing like grocercy shopping the voices inside my head as I call them feel like these people are walking along beside me in the aisles chattering away. Another fear is in relation to talking to people and that is ring my manager I need to write down what I want to say to her before I ring her otherwise I start to bumble around and stutter in talking to her, I feel like she talks to the other workers about it when I am on shift and that just makes me feel worse about myself, how in the hell do you get through these fears that is a question in itself please?? Regards Spitfire1
  28. Moonstruck
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    20 March 2019 in reply to Spitfire1

    Dear Spitfire and Paw Prints...thanks for joining the discussion with me...I can relate to both of you..and Spitfire, I get "scared" of making phone calls too...it's annoying because when I get on the phone my voice sounds professional, calm, confident and very "together" person!! Yet it took me ages to get up the courage to dial the number!! I don't know why this is...perhaps a therapist or GP could give us the answer.

    Just wanted to say the 3 things I was scared of:;;....went to phone shop, she recommended one right for my needs....got up the courage to go back a few days ago to buy it...yes I got brave enough...they didn't have that particular one in stock at the time, expecting a new shipment soon and will definitely get one then! I felt better, just going in the store having made my decision.....so i will be getting it soon (if I don't chicken out).

    2. floor covering...Man coming to free measure and quote next week. Picked out what I want, price seems right and I am anticipating the relief and pleasure I will feel when it's done and I can look at a much more attractive room....the need for the product is way way overdue...but I have been so paralysed with anxiety and fear to actually take a step in ANY direction it seems, particularly ones I have to rely on others' help or advice with. So that is where I am with that challenge.

    3. I have my sofa/bed in spare room which I got from a 2nd hand furniture store, affordable price and seems OK for my needs........I made this progress on all 3 things in the space of a week...and wish to hell I knew what or who gave me the push forward....but whatever angel it was...thank you.

    These may seem trivial achievements to others, but I like to think I have done Ok to get this far....good luck to us all...Moonstruck

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  29. Paw Prints
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    20 March 2019 in reply to Moonstruck

    Dear Moonstruck,

    Whoohoo!! Very well done & definitely not trivial. I would have been impressed if you had managed only one, you did all three. You should be feeling very chuffed with yourself.

    Paw Prints

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  30. Moonstruck
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    47 posts
    25 March 2019 in reply to Paw Prints

    Thanks for the encouragement. Haven't picked up my new phone yet..but not scared to any more. I actually added another item to my shopping list of challenges.....made appointment for (mainly cosmetic) dental procedure which I both need (in order to smile and open my mouth when a photo is taken)..and very much "want".

    It was suggested to me ages ago, got a quote some months back and the dentist is lovely...so I have been thinking about it for some time...but until today, didn't actually take action.

    So unaccustomed to doing things for ME, pampering ME, giving something to Myself.....its very strange territory indeed.

    Man came to measure for floor coverings today and I was anxious before he came....worrying whether the room was clean enough, the house looking OK etc...what he would think of my house keeping skills (or lack of) how badly the room needs this new covering etc etc. He was very pleasant and only here for a small while....yet I was filled with anxiety before he came!!

    Wondering just when this "fear" took me over...or did it build up over a long period...or what? I faced all sorts of trauma and despair when younger....but I seemed stronger then than I do now...when nothing really threatening is happening to me!!

    Who has the answer for this question of mine? Why did the irrational fear begin and what triggered it off?

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