Reading this made me sad, but helped me to appreciate that I'm not alone.
I've had health anxiety since I was kid. It mainly revolves around me believing I have cancer - a family member of mine died from cancer when I was young.
My anxiety was bad in high school/college but got better through university. I thought I was just getting more mature.
I was lucky enough to have a job I really enjoyed for 3 years after university. I not only enjoyed the work but worked with a great group of people. This really helped because I'd often be distracted by work before a worry could develop so it consumed my mind.
A couple of years ago I left that job, hoping to broaden my experience. I enjoy my new job but I'm a bit more isolated. The office is a bit smaller and the work isn't as interesting for me. So, since starting the job I've had more time to worry. The worries have now consumed my life.
I've seen a GP more than ever over the last 12 months. I've thought I've had cancers in the bowel, prostate (I'm 31!!!), liver, bladder, lungs and more others. I'm now preoccupied with my skin and worried about freckles.
I completely understand the feeling of seeing the doctor one day and then worrying about some other symptom the next day. It feels like you can't get a break.
I'm lucky that I have a great doctor (who I trust and understands me) but when I see specialists I often find it hard to trust them.
My anxiety manifests as increased heart rate, fidgeting and tense muscles (mainly).
I'm seeing a psychologist, taking medication and trying some techniques. They do work, but I have spikes, and I think this is something I'll have to manage for the rest of my life.
I'm aware that the anxiety impacts my family, who I seek reassurance from, and I can understand why they get frustrated.
Anyway, just wanted to tell my story. Good luck to everyone out there.