Its been a while since my last post but I am doing ok. Riding the ups and downs as best as I can.
The reason for my current post is this: PANIC!!
Sheer blinding chest-crushing breath-taking shaking panic... Out of nowhere I had another panic attack, first time in months, and without any reason that I can see. I had to keep going because I was at work and every step I thought "this is it, im going to die." But I also thought I can get through this, deep breaths and focus on my job. After about 2 hours I managed to get it under control (couldnt take any medications while working, although they would have probably helped get it over sooner).
So symptoms: chest pain, shaking hands, difficulty breathing properly and photosensitivity.
How I dealt with it: Everything will be ok (Mantra), focus on my breathing and controlling each breath, reminding myself that if it was a real heart attack it would be like an elephant on my chest not stabbing little pains, and finally drinking some more water both to hydrate my system and as a focus activity.
In summary: Panic attacks are not fun! Yes, you think you are going to die and the more you focus on it the worse it becomes. It will pass, like all things, just try to go somewhere safe (or if working, think about somewhere calming) and ride it out. Remember to live in the moment, be it good or bad, it is just an experience. When possible, take your medications if you are prescribed them.
Thank you all for reading this post and I hope to be more active in the future,