It was after seeing this psychologist, that I learned some amazing mindfulness techniques including deep breathing exercises, challenging negative thought processes and responding with what i knew was the truth, monitoring how many commitments i could take on in line with my current model of self care, engaging the 5 senses to combat panic attacks and just recognising how deep and problematic my anxiety had become and empathising with the little girl who was struggling inside, while also recognising i am not defined by my struggles with anxiety. I also gradually became confident enough to exercise, practice yoga, do dance, music, art, i learned to laugh and be happy and optimistic again, with the help of an amazing church community who have supported me the whole way. I started to take driving lessons, volunteer in the hopes of finding work, take on leadership and ministry opportunities, and to be honest I'm feeling pretty optimistic and hopeful for the future! Life is still a challenge, I still experience panic attacks and anxiety and it's definitely not easy, but its about the healing journey and experience, not the destination, as cheesy as that sounds and I feel like i've come a long way! I hope this post can encourage others to keep fighting your battles, because you are worthy. You are enough. Youre not defined by your anxiety, nor by what you do. You are a beautiful person who is going through a really tough time right now, and you know what? That's okay! :) Take things at your own pace, one step at a time :) I'd love to encourage other people to take small steps to make sure they're alright- meet up with friends, go for a walk, pursue your passions, laugh, cry, eat chocolate, have a nice warm bubble bath, smile, dance, buy the freaking shows. Because if you're suffering from anxiety and/or depression and your still here, you are stronger, more beautiful and more powerful than you know, your not weak or worthless, you are an absolute warrior who deserves the best. If you're still struggling and its tough to turn to family and friends, I want to encourage people too to seek out the help of a psychologist, because in truth, it's actually radically helped me to pursue self love and self care and for me it's totally been worth it. You can go to your GP and write up a mental health plan, and receive a referral for treatment by a psychologist. its a really hard, emotionally exhausting process, but i want to encourage you to keep persevering! Love Lara. x