Sleepy21, what a great decision you made. To be so strong, to want to fight, well done.
there was a time when my mind and body had completely given up, leading into ideation and other things. But there was a part of me that was not ready to give up, a part that just kept getting up after every beat down.
i mustered the strength to get myself back inside and phone lifeline, but couldn't get through.
The weekend passes, and come monday i go to work, thinking all the way what will i face today. I get through the morning, and decided enough is enough, i need help.
i took myself straight to the Local medical centre, asked to see the nurses. When asked by One of the nurses, who i can only describe as an angel sent from heaven, what the problem was, i said “im having trouble with my anxiety”. She was the first person i told about being suicidal, and then i broke down in tears.
this nurse...no, angel, calmly spoke to me, reassured me, said and did all the right Things. Called my mum, and comforted me until the doctor came back from lunch.
I had had previous diagnosis, meds, CBT, a few years before all of this, so that was the restart of my journey.
mental health plan, psych services, a bunch of support.
the doctors i saw - amazing
the nurse - amazing
my psychologist - amazing
psych services - amazing
its not the full story, its the abridged version, but like a lot of people 2500 characters wont be enough.