Hey luna, hi everyone else too,
I hope you're all doing okay, doesn't seem so! Sending lots of loving energy to you all.
Steel beams? lol just more junk left behind by demon (exH). I decided to use them to mark out an internal fence I intend to build for the proposed cabin's path and garden. BUT we moved the 2nd beam over and there was a massive Blue Tongued Lizard sitting there! What a darling. We raced to get our dog away. Then left the beams until we get more muscle to help, wow are they HEAVY!
Always so much for me to do here. Now beginning the actual planning of the cabin build, I'll be even busier!
Re: everything going on outside my 4 fences & immediate family...
Worrying about all that is way WAY above my pay grade.
The ONE consistent and persistent emotion I heard in all my recent conversations with anyone outside my family has been anger.
I can't subscribe to it.
I'm going low / no contact with all these ppl now.
I've had a wonderful Counsellor for about 5y, she's helped me alot.
Why worry and worry and worry endlessly over things well outside our control?
As the Dalai Lama said (sic) "Worrying is like rocking in a rocking chair, you're doing something but it's not getting you anywhere"... I agree.
Whatever my situation is right now, it just HELPS when I'm focussing on what I CAN do. Nothing else.
It's possible to suffer from 'compassion fatigue' and I'm sure it's the same with endless stress & worry.
My Fiance lives in the U.S.
At the onset of this pandemic I had skyrocketing anxiety and was formally diagnosed with Complex PTSD from all sorts soon afterwards.
I sought treatment, worked very hard and still work hard to hold on to any MH gains I've made.
My aim is to be ONE of the people who are "okay" as we return back to work on site etc.
Btw it's fine to be angry, it's a perfectly normal human emotion!
I validate anyone's anger at the situation, the pandemic, their own situations.
Though it can only last x long before anger does some hard core damage to us, not just mentally but it converts into physical illnesses too.
If anger isn't motivating us to improve our lives and outcomes, it's pretty useless holding on to it IMO.
Just not worth it.
Take care everyone.
Hope you can all find moments of peace, calm and beauty in your day!