I have been feeling really really down lately and I'm not sure who to talk to. This whole year has been really tough on everyone and at the moment I'm having a hard time going back to how i was feeling before lockdowns and everything going out of control. At the beginning of the year I was feeling pretty confident, I had so many plans for things I wanted to achieve this year like make new friends and spend more time with people in my life, find a new job in my field, possibly find a relationship. It's been very difficult to do any of these and I feel like I've completely lost my confidence and motivation to even try now and I just feel unhappy, lonely and not like my usual self at all. I never was a super confident person to begin with so now that all this has happened I feel like a complete mess and like I'm stuck in a black hole.
Before covid I was seeing this guy and we were seeing eachother a bit when lockdowns first started. We were getting along so well but stopped because it was difficult with the restrictions. He started talking to me again recently and I was pretty excited to hear from him, but things felt so different like we werent talking as effortlessly and when I went to hang out with him it felt more awkward like I didn't even know what to say. He hasn't talked to me since we hung out now and I feel like it's because my social skills have gone so bad from the isolation that of course he wouldn't want to be around me.
I wish I knew what to do to gain my confidence back I just feel so stuck and awful right now and I feel like I can't even see people because I'm so much of a mess that it will make me feel even worse. Someone please help