I'd like to join TonyWK in welcoming you here and can say if you need help you can find it here.
Sometimes people are so overcome they find it incredibly difficult to just write those words, and at the time simply cannot write more.
Now that you have made the effort and got a start here would you like to tel us more about what is wrong and what you need help with?
We are a friendly and non-judgmental place, and in all our members most have faced just about anything you can imagine - I for example have PTSD, bouts of depression and constant anxiety, I was suicidal but things are now good.
I'll keep an eye out to see if you want to say more, I'm sure Tony WK will too.