thanks for your post thank reading but not posting will relate.
It can be a viscious cycle the depression is telling us we are worthless,why bother but you know you worked hard building career . What would happen if you tr@vel. Overseas travel may take a while. Would you feel motivated and have the energy to travel.
Making big decisions when depressed is difficult even small ones are hard. You can see both sides. CN you take a long period offfrom your career so you have the option of return to it.
At the moment it seems the depression will be around forever and that would affec5 your decisions.
Many years ago I would start studying at uni only to drop out when depressed then start another course when I felt ok , you see the pattern. That was my experience as I felt I could not cope when depressed. That is just me.
have you a doctor or counsellor you can talk to.
Thanks for sharing your story.
Did writing down your thoughts help in any way ?