I feel for you so very much. It can be so overwhelming when we're looking for a difference but don't know where to start looking. I'm glad you felt inspired to start looking here. So many caring thoughtful people here who want to make a positive difference for others.
You mention 'I just feel flat...'. I know this may sound a little simplistic but 2 questions that come to mind
- What drains you?
- What charges you up?
The media can definitely be draining. You can be in a fine mood when you turn on the news to face how terrible things are, how hopeless things appear to be. Being a sensitive gal, the media's typically a no go zone for me most of the time. It tends to drain me or anger me. Taking note of people around us can also be important. Being in a negative environment can be draining at times, especially when we're sensitive to other people's 'vibe'. The environment itself can sometimes require a bit of a shake up. If we're stuck in sameness, creating difference can help create a tiny 'up shift'. Moving the furniture around may not seem like much but every time we look at the difference we made, it becomes a reference to 'I'm someone who makes a difference'. This thought can help trigger a little dopamine.
Biology or chemistry will also make a difference in how we're vibing. Basically, we're powered by energy. Whether it's the restorative energy that comes with good sleep, solar power (vitamin D), hydro power (our cells thrive on water) or the natural energy that's found in a good diet, we react to energy just as we react to a lack of it (like with that lack of dopamine). The kind of energy that's created through iron and B12 is significant. Blood tests to see how things are 'measuring up' is worth considering. In one way, we're a big bag of chemical/energy reactions. If something's out of whack, we'll feel the impact.
It is said that we naturally thrive on a healthy balance or relaxation and excitement. An imbalance can impact us holistically. While stress can have us in unhealthy states of hyperactivity and inevitable exhaustion, a lack of excitement or difference (within potentially soul destroying sameness) can also impact us psychologically, biologically and naturally. When there's little 'charging us up' in positive ways, we can be left feeling little positive difference. When there's a lot charging us up, we can feel a lot of difference.
Discovering what naturally puts us 'in charge' is more like a quest than a basic challenge.