Hello Guest, can I also join those above me and offer my support because what you have said is a concern 'anxiety, depression, alcoholism, blackouts, seizures' but please trust me I understand.
If I can just mention as I used alcohol as self medication a long time ago, and please I'm only just commenting and by no means criticising you, because that's what isn't done on this site, all we want to do is help you.
Seizures (which I've had ) can be caused by binge drinking and also withdrawal, but it can also affect any medication we're taking, plus it can cause any blackouts that may happen and affect our memory, waking up the next morning, not sure what you've said or whether or not it's someone you have upset.
We are unable to change our past but we can learn from it, either in a positive way or perhaps go in directions that we now know are not favourable.
No one can stop you from drinking, that decision has to come from you, but you have to be happy when you make that choice and have trust in those who want to help you.
Seeing someone different is a huge problem, not only do you have to relay your story again and again but each person handles your situation in a different way, so it may become confusing and very complex, so please if you want to keep talking with us that would be great, I've been in your situation and feel sorry for you.