I am currently still in hotel isolation (day 7 of 14).
I did some looking for places to live tonight because my family is already making me feel like a burden and setting rediculous rules for me just so they can control me and my movements like I did when I was a child, and I haven't even moved in yet! I found some really cute places, so naturally I looked for jobs in those places. Nothing. Then I looked for work in the whole state. Nothing.
Every single job requires experience of 2 or more years, which I don't have, plus I can't get experience because noone will hire me because I don't have experience and I get stuck in a loop. I won't be able to get a place to live without a job, even though I would only move into a place where my financial benefits from the government would easily cover it and I would be able to survive, landlords don't care about that and only look at job income, when there is none, you don't get approved which is stupid but anyway, that's an issue for another day. I hate that the world has become who do you know ratehr than actually looking at qualifications and working with people, expanding your horizons ect.
I am starting to get pains in my legs from the lack of exercise and walking. I tried to do stretches today but I don't want to do too much because I don't want to disturb the person below me, and the balcony is locked so I actually can't do literally anything.
I don't want to move in with my family, I still haven't got my bond back from my abusive ex-housemates (I wasn't on the lease so it should have been given back to me immediately but again, abusive. They are being difficult for the sake of being difficult), I feel tired and lonely and I just want to be able to survive without all this stress and stuff in my life. Housing is a basic human right, the fact I cannot get it even when I can afford it is a joke.
I have plenty to do in isolation so its not so much that that's bothering me, I just... idk. I wish I could live and survive but I am socially autistic and struggle to make friends, therefore no connections, therefore the world tells me I'm not allowed to survive. All my friends are international and different time zones, which isn't helping. One of my closest friends has health issues and isn't online so I can't even check and see how he is. Life just sucks.