I think you bring up a another good point and I have got a psychologist I see but it is quite space out because of booking availability which helps clear the fog in my mind a bit but maybe not guide me.
I was extremely anxious posting on this forum for example but I don’t regret it at all because it’s definitely had a positive impact and it’s comforting to talk to others who have their own experiences that I can gain advice from.
I am lucky to have had parents who have guided me on a good path in terms of career, morals and how I should conduct myself and basically having the basics in order.
Where I find I’m struggling is with the areas I’m having a battle with (social acceptance, finding a partner, finding who I am and being comfortable) I try to reach out to friends or something and it’s almost I’m a victim of looking like I have my stuff together and I’m sort of met with advice like “you’ve got everything you need, just be yourself”.
I know I most things in order and I’m grateful for all that, but it’s a deep sense of self as you’ve described that I’ve always struggled with.
I even feel bad or ashamed talking about it with people or on a forum like this where there are people who have endured far worse than myself in life and I have a big guilt for the way I feel. If you could peak inside my head and thoughts the common feeling is “what’s wrong with you, you have xyz but you feel like this and its pathetic”.
I have often re-read your posts and am trying hard to take a lot of the advice you’ve provided in particular and I apologise if I have been an annoyance over the period we have chatted on here, I do greatly appreciate your patience and time.
It’s really not understanding why I am like this that is one of the big struggles and I know deep down there’s something there in me that I can unlock but I feel like I lack courage and strength to bring it out, particularly socially.
Was wondering also, you have mentioned you are more a shy type, in situations where you might have been social anxious in the past or afraid to bring yourself out how did you start to action this better?
I almost do it in a way where I go to these birthdays or something to throw myself out there but I end up feeling depressed after because I feel like a failure for not engaging people or if I’m more quiet at these things, just feels like I’m failing at it.
sorry again for the all over the place post