I've never felt so flat in my life, I have depression and anxiety, I've been through so much the last year it feels like it never ends, first August 2019 my brother went to jail which shocked us all, sexual assault, he now has over 60 charges when he first went to jail I was made to do everything, organise solicitors, visits, make the calls to find out why he was in jail, I felt like I was his mother because my mum is an alcoholic and just drank and drank and made me do everything, I went into a deep depression and nearly lost myself and my family, then the house we were living at for 8 years we got evicted because the owner wanted to knock the house down, so of course I had to look for a house for myself and husband and our 4 children with absolutely no money to move because it was brought on us so sudden, we finally got a house after 2 months, then i thought things could only get better from here, wrong, I had a cancer scare and we thought I had endometrial cancer, I had all the symptoms had to have ultrasounds they all come back bad, then my pap smear come back HPV positive another scare, I had to get into the hospital within 2 weeks for a biopsy, a month goes by and still no appointment, so my doctor chases it up as to why it's taking so long, I finally got an appointment, had the biopsy and had to wait 9 days for the results , results come back within 3 days. Thank God it wasn't cancer , but now I have to have surgery ( Endometrial ablation). I booked in for that 2 weeks ago so now on the wait list, then I got a phone call from my child's school that my daughter had been self-harming, that knocked me for 6 then on Saturday 4th July, my nan passed away. It just feels like it's one thing after another and I'm not getting a break. I can't seem to show any emotion , can't laugh , can't cry. I'm just flat, I'm not sleeping properly even though I'm constantly tired. I don't want to leave my house and when I think of it, my heart just pounds out of my chest.
Does anyone have any advice on how to move forward from all of this.