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Topic: I don’t know what category this fits in but I’m putting it here

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  1. asimplenoodle:p
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    9 January 2020

    So about four years ago I started dating a friend of mine. It lasted a couple weeks and during that we only saw each other for 2 or 3 days but we would text occasionally. Then I broke up with him because I thought I wouldn’t see him again (I was only 11 and we knew each other through a program thing) and I saw him again a month later for a bit but that’s irrelevant. At this point in time I was mentally healthy and didn’t even really know what depression or anxiety was

    For about a year I didn’t think about it but as I started developing depression and anxiety and crap I started thinking about him.( I haven’t had a relationship since then and I don’t know if I could even call it one as it was so short. ) But then I started thinking about it. And it hasn’t stopped. Every single day I think about what I had and how I threw it away and how I feel guilty and every single time I leave the house the only thing on my mind is seeing him again. I would walk through shopping centres constantly alert. I tried searching on social media but nothing. I genuinely just want to see him and apologise and talk and stop whatever I’m feeling. Back in the program thing i had a couple friends and now i think about them too. Not as bad but it’s still there. I don’t know what this is or what to do but I get so many negative thoughts like what if he’s dead or what if he hates you and I don’t know how to feel and I hate it.

    Whenever I start thinking about him I get depressed and lonely and my self worth plummets and I feel guilty etc.

    Does anyone know what this is. I don’t think he should mean that much to me and I know it’s irrational but I can’t stop thinking about him.

  2. Croix
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    9 January 2020 in reply to asimplenoodle:p

    Dear Asimplenoodle:p~

    Welcome to the support forum This is a good idea, as you will have the views and experiences of others to draw on. It might have been a difficult thing to do, but it is worth it.

    When you were 11 you were in a project with friends and formed a friendship wiht one in particular. You knew the project was only for a limited time and stopped that friendship as it seemed as if it was not practically possible to keep it going.

    Four years later on life is different, you have as you say 'depression anxiety and crap". Not good. In fact it sounds like a pretty horrible time. I would think it is only natural to look back on happier times -and a happy relationship.

    That's OK and understandable. Unfortunately your mental health conditions are not leaving you alone but sending your mind back to those people and wanting to be with them again. This has gone further so now you are wondering about what they might think of you now, which is where all those low self esteem thoughts generated by depression and anxiety kick in. You wonder if you are hated, even though there is no real reason I can see why you should be.

    You kick yourself for ending the relationship even though it was not going to be practical and you really have no idea how it might have turned out.

    Can I ask if anyone knows about all this, how you feel and hope? Have you told your parents, or seen a doctor, have you in fact been diagnosed by a doctor and are under treatment?

    Trying to get out of a condition, in my case including anxiety, was not something I could do by myself. though I tried for a long time. I really did need medical help, plus I was fortunate in having a caring family too. Now I'm good and my mind no longer goes in circles

    You are welcome to talk here as often as you might like

    Croix

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