Thanks for sharing your story. You did your first post just right.
It sounds like you are experiencing some ups and downs in your mood that are causing your some distress. That can be so difficult. I am sorry you are going through this. There are many things that can contribute to mood changes and seeing a psychologist can help you get to the bottom of this. Bipolar is not the only reason why people have changes to their mood, sometimes people can cycle up and down in their mood in relation to the weather and seasons, other times it can be due to hormones, and sometimes it is stressors that are not easily identified.
I would recommend getting to your therapy appointment for an assessment to your mood changes or at least going back to your GP. You could also try using a mood tracking app like Daylio and track your mood each day. Doing this can help establish any patterns over a period of time which can be helpful information.
If you are feeling overwhelmed and need to reach out at any time, the Beyond Blue Support Service 1300 22 4636 or the Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467 is a great support. Calling a support number when you are feeling confused or distressed can be really helpful, even in that moment.
We are listening and here if you want to talk more. The forum is a safe place to share your story and sometimes writing things out can really help.
Sending you strength,