im At a hotel for the night so I can have some space to be upset. I feel like I’m the one who has hit rock bottom it’s all just so hard to take in
trying to find a rental is so exhausting and difficult
the hurtful part for me is he changed his relationship with me, but hasn’t pushed anyone else out? I find the difficult to digest and process.
I feel les tolerant to work and everything in general atm. I’m seeing a work HSO and she will forward my details to a psychologist.
he said he has looked at a couple of the apps I sent.
he got choked up talking about his mental well being and said he’s not selfish enough to hurt himself
I kindly told him I worry about that all the time but didn’t push anything
he was ok to talk to me about the financial issues . Usually he gets a bit shirty with me.
he said to me to come around for coffee to see the dog is I wanted to just let him know
that doesn’t work for me that will cause me more anxiety going back there I can’t eat properly as it is now I just have no appetite but I eat small amounts because I know I have to
i though about telling him where I am tonight but I’m unsure because he has been quiet so I thought I would leave him alone. He discussed when he gets his car back the dog can come next time
I still can’t believe this is all happening