Thanks for clicking and taking the time to read my story.
I have been struggling with depression (on and off) for 12 years. I am 23 now and am sick of it!
It started in school whilst my parents were fighting everyday and using me as an emotional punching bag.
Despite this I did well in school and believed in myself.
Then in highschool a "friend" bullied me for 3 years. It was intense, physical assult, daily emotional taunting, it left me dreading school. At this point my parents were separated and I was living with my sister and Dad, whilst not getting along with my Mum.
My general attitude was, I'm strong enough to deal with this on my own. This was the general advice from my Dad. This resulted in me never reaching out to my best friend, school councillor, teachers, etc.
This attitude followed me to when I was raped by a "loving" boyfriend. Again, I did not tell my best friend, parents, sister, etc. (5 years ago)
Now I am in the position of having no friends, I am struggling to complete my university course (I love what I am studying, however this same attitude prevents me from reaching out for help when I need it).
I turned this around this summer after a great work experience program where I got tonnes of support. Untin Coronavirus....
Coronavirus forced me to move back home for the past 3 months and I've never made such a big mistake!
It was such a toxic environment, that I couldn't complete my studies online and I'm not certain if I'll be allowed to continue with my work experience program.
I feel so lost and frustrated. I don't have anyone I can turn to for support and I need to plan how to procede.
I will go back to the city and prepare for my studies next semester. My main concern is how I am dreading going back, as I have no support/friends there. I have taken steps to talk to potential friends in my city and it looks promising. However I still have the issue of my depression. It has effected every aspect of my life!!!
Plan of action so far....
I need a support group in Perth with people who understand me! I need to speak to the councillors at uni and explain how it's effected my studies. I need a psychologist to acknowledge and address my past experiences so I can stop thinking about them as issues (the bullying, the rape, the fear I have of opening up to people).
My goal from therapy is to build a support network for myself in Perth!
Please someone provide some guidance! I would very much appreciate it!