Thanks for your reply. Yes I have been learning the piano which I have found therapeutic. I also dance but have not been able to adjust to doing it on Zoom. I have two teenagers who are high level dancers and one of them had a very bad injury dancing at home about a month ago and that has put me off too I think.
I do take walks but the loneliness is difficult and the longer this goes on in Melbourne the harder it is I am finding to divert myself from sad thoughts.
It doesn't help that I feel alone here even though I am with my husband and kids. (My husband and I have gone to a platonic level in the past couple of months though as we were fighting a lot and it was the only way for us to function and we both agreed on that).
My other relatives are all in Perth. They really don't get how difficult it has been in Melbourne even when I try and explain a lot of it to them. They try to be supportive but they don't really understand what they haven't experienced. The millisecond they were in lockdown was like a novelty to them and then everything returned to normal very quickly.
Usually I am a very strong and upbeat person trying to hold everyone else up and support my family. Interestingly although my first craving is for lockdown to end so I can return to my busy, active and more socially connected life, I am also eager for change as I think this isolation experience has also brought forward an inevitable change that I think is coming which has been realised and accelerated through the isolation experience. I need more of my old strength and spark to be able to make that happen in the best way possible moving forward.