Dear Suisse (previously BoltRog)~
Welcome to this section of the forum, I have read your other thread
Forums / Sexuality and gender identity / Newbie... Anxiety, sexuality issues and more
Where you have recently been in contact with Pepper over that particular issue.
Actually I'm glad I did it as it does give some insight into how alone and discouraged you feel at the moment.
I'm sorry your relationship has broken up, do you wish for a chance to get together again?
To be alone after relying upon being with a partner, and not to have confidence in the past decisions you have made is a horrible way to be, and trying to sort it all out by yourself now may well seem an almost impossible task.
I think it is very good you have a job, even if not ideal. Is it the same one as before?
Worry over the future, feeling disconnected, no motivation plus lack of confidence are not surprising given your current situation and past history which goes back to the bullying you experienced in your youth.
The diagnosis of ADHD with low dopamine is only tentative. Can I suggest you go further on the medical side, be tested for the anxiety you mentioned before, together with other conditions such as depression and see what happens?
If you are already under regular medical care I guess you might like to tell them that at the moment your regime is not that effective.
There may be therapy and other treatment to assists you.
Can I also ask if there is anyone to talk things over with on a day to day basis, someone in your family perhaps? Getting an outside perspective really can help.
You are welcome to talk abut things here