I am trying to deal with a severe lumbar spine injury, that has gotten worse over a number of years. Currently I am not able to walk unaided, can not do anything outside in the fresh air, and my hobby, that is so good for my mental health, has been curtailed. I have suffered bouts of depression for many years, and just as I was getting into a good place, I have had this latest setback. I am retired and now live in a small country town and medical services are limited. I need to travel 160 ks from home to access specialist care, so it's a long and tiring day as a round trip. My wife is my support and I don't wish to be a burden on her any more than totally necessary. I feel that I am just lost and fear what the future holds for us both. If it is surgery, a poor outcome would change our lives forever. Retirement was supposed to be better than this.