You're such an incredibly thoughtful sensitive person, already considering the feelings and challenges of a child you (at a deeper level) wish to have in the future. You are beautiful.
If you've a good imagination, I'll trigger it by leading you to imagine you and your partner having a child in 5 years time. In 5 years time, things are a little different. You understand yourself better - your thoughts and thought processing, your chemistry (how it works best) and your nature (your ability to sense what brings you down and what raises your spirits). Can you imagine the next 5 years as 'a research period'?
While research can prove inspiring and mind altering, it can also prove to be depressing at times, something to be prepared for. In recalling my years in depression, a lot of it was depressing. The amount of meds that didn't work, the psych who made no obvious difference in the way of personal enlightenment, the number of people I was led to who told me I may need to face the possibility I could be in a depression for the rest of my life, the impact self medicating (alcohol) had on my chemistry and perspective, the lack of information out there for a highly sensitive person (an HSP) who can feel so much and the list goes on.
Sometimes it's the research that exists outside the square which proves to be the most inspiring and mind altering. Whether your research takes you in the direction of better understanding the world of epigenetics (which dictates 'We're not doomed through our genes'), the world of neuroplasticity (which dictates the mind is incredibly flexible in the way it holds the potential to process things) or the world of what's perfectly natural (we're designed to feel or sense so much), it's all outside of mainstream study or research.
As a mum to an 18yo gal and 16yo guy, there may be days where I imagine my kids are somewhat 'cursed' by my genes (dictating the possibility of depression), yet there are days where we feel blessed through the great sensitivity the 3 of us share. We're easily sensing the suppressive, oppressive and depressing nature of living in a city with the 2nd highest number of lock down days on the planet. It's surreal, living in Melbourne, mind altering. You can feel what's not natural, on so many levels. The up side, we can sense what we need and therefor raise each other to fulfilling those needs.
While one task is to raise our child, another is to be raised by that child, often through challenge.