I am lost as to where I can go to get help.
I have found it very difficult to see a GP in my area. I have been to a number of psychology services, that I have engaged personally and a through my employers wellbeing service and found these of no value, in fact found them to make me feel worse.
I am full time employed and changes that are occurring at work are creating challenging environment as I personally don't agree with some of the changes and if I am open about my opinion I am judged and feel verbally harassed. I am not wanting to go to work anymore but have nothing else to fall back on. Talking to colleagues and my manager is not an option.
I live alone and don't have a huge social network and I find it very difficult to get motivation to get out and about.
Whilst I have the worst thoughts, I don't consider myself a high risk of suicide as I also reflect on what suicide will mean to family and the impact it will have on others who know me.
I am looking for what has worked for others that have found them selves lost and the normal help services not working for you.