i hope I can help as I am completing my bereavement support course.
Grief is a normal reaction and everyone grieves differently. The pain of the grief can never be taken away no matter what anyone may say.
There are many emotional and physical reactions to grief. The emotional side is you will feel sad, fear, denial, numb, lonely, confused , angry and physically too you will feel head aches, body pain, shaking sweating, breathless , weight gain or loss and you will feel a sense of withdrawal too not wanting to take part in activities you did before .
The first step is to accept the reality of the grief maybe have a memorial service in honour of your husband and work through the grief accept being sad, upset, angry and even though your husband is no longer there have an enduring connection with him in heart and mind by sharing his memories and biographies , Try to develop new skills for yourself, new activities and new friends so you keep occupied.
You may also join a support group in your area where you meet others grieving too so you are not alone in your grief.
I would be happy to help if you msg me here in anyway.
You could also talk to someone whom you trust and whom you feel cares and is comfortable to share your pain with you.
someone who can listen patiently without being non judgemental and allows you to talk and share your emotions.
Stay strong .