Thank you LittleTiger for chosing to join in here. I can't even start to imagine what it would feel like to grieve a child.
Reading your post my mouth went dry even thinking about it. One of the only things that was keeping my anxiety somewhat in check is that kids don't seem to be as affected by this virus.
Then our friend had his accident. It was a reality check that I needed. There are rituals and structure and routines I rely on to feel somewhat ok. Some of the routines are on hold at the moment. Hubby calls me an optimist and perhaps he's right because I choose to focus on what IS still possible.
I am grateful that you got to have a service for your daughter.
I'm grateful that in your hurt and distress you chose to write. You mentioned finding the time alone helpful somehow and also feeling distressed and needing support. I found myself agreeing. It's odd to me how I can want to be alone and yet want company at the same time. For me that's part of why these forums help.
If you want to talk about your daughter I'd love to listen. You can keep writing here (or if you want a space just for you you can create a new thread). Either is fine.
It felt nice to read you found this thread positive. Sorry if I don't make sense. I feel unsettled today.
Thank you LittleTiger. I think your post was just what I needed to read.