This is so devastating to hear. I am so sorry for your loss. Losing anyone is difficult, but when it is someone who raised you and they are gone so suddenly, it can feel unbearable.
It sounds like your mum was a wonderful person who shared a beautiful relationship with you. Those memories are what you can hold on to as you deal with this next chapter in your life. I cannot tell you it will be easy, because it won’t be. You will be faced with many challenges and negative emotions. However, you have shown an incredible strength in reaching out to this community on Beyond Blue. I agree with Summer Rose, try to find people in your life that you can go to for support. You may not feel like you can trust anyone like you trusted your mother, but there may be other people who can provide some help for you in this difficult time.
I wish you all the best for the coming days, as you prepare to attend your mother’s funeral, and for the time that follows that. Take as much time as you need to feel sad and grieve.
A big hug.