I am so painfully sorry for your loss, for your mother and your brother, I can hear the pain in your words but also the love. I have drawn great strength from your post, see I have not yet had to experience the FINAL piece in the tragic puzzle and it fills me with sadness and anxiety when I think of it. Your post has given me hope that it will be a sad day but also a time full of love, but also so many other emotions too, perhaps saying goodbye to all the family pains too.
Huge hugs to you Nomes6 and I send my heartfelt love to you today and for the festive time that you no doubt will really miss then and hopefully you can have something special on the day to honor your mother and brother, I am still not sure how I am going to do this yet..
Hugs to you Nomes6