I'm at a loss here, my mother passed away in the uk at the age of 75 3 days ago and I think it's starting to hit me only now.
I've become angry, irritable and distant - the only family I have here is my wife and I'm pushing her away and doing the same to my brother and sister in the uk away, the messed up part is that I know I'm doing it but cant stop almost like I want to destroy everything. Feeling that if i push hard enough they will all leave me alone and they will be better off for it.
I'm just rambling here as i don't know what to say or what to do, christ I haven't even shed a tear what is wrong with me, all I am is angry not even upset!!!
I just want to stop being a dick and hurting the most important person to me but have no clue how to do this,