Hi Sum, welcome
Yes, I lost my brother in 1979, he was 26yo me 23. I have a younger sister that I'm close to.
His unexpected death hit my family hard. In fact, I became the strong one others including my parents leant on as they crumbled around me so, in effect, I began to grieve 6 moths later but that's ok, someone has to hold the fort together.
Grief for your brother must be really difficult for you at this time. Can anyone help you in that process? Well in some ways it's limited but yes they can. A good part of the grief process we have to endure alone I'm afraid, but we can introduce methods that cushion the effects.
Were you close? What do you remember of him that you hold dear?
I'm impressed you have found this forum, well done and mentioned this event in your life. From that I get it that his passing has been difficult for you to put aside.
A neighbor of mine a few years ago - his son died in a car accident. His son grew roses. So he collected small examples from his green house and planted them and named the garden after him. I thought that was a fine example of channeling energy into something that is in honour of his son.
For me, every few years I climb a hill and watch a sunset then dedicate that time to those that have passed on. It is then that I think about my brother and father, the latter was an incredibly kind man. When I descend the hill I think about how I can continue his legacy in my own life and posting here is one of those actions. As for my brother he was an Elvis fan so every year or so I play some YouTube videos of him to take me to that "zone".
Another idea is distraction. Hobbies, sports and seeking a love life or whatever is missing in your life. An idle mind is a vulnerable one sometimes. During depressive periods I used to have a large jigsaw in a spare bedroom and do a few pieces when down.
Beyondblue topic coping with grief
I hope that helps you.
My only other suggestion is to keep up with some GP visits as face to face appointments can give relief. He/she might suggest counseling and we all have some reservations on that until some results trickle through and we say "gee, I'm glad I did that".
So I'd love to hear from you and your brothers relationship. Take you time and I hope you feel better. We are hear 24/7/365.