Please, let me offer you our condolences. My brother and uncle went the same way, my sister and I attempted many years ago.
If I could offer one critical peice of wisdom it would be- that there is a life beyond your husband, if that is what you are sceptical of, if that is what you are afraid of andifthat is your preferred option.
I don’t think you are as confident as you should be. “His boat” and “he refuses to sell it” tells me that he makes the ultimate decisions in your marriage. If you divorced he’d lose half his assets, then he might realise fun at your expense isn’t the way to go.
Grief is personal. Take as long as you need. Very cruel of him to say “get over it”. Your other children will talk about their sister when they are ready. I took 10 years with my brother.
Id like to ask you to read the first post of this thread
beyondblue topic the best praise you’ll ever get
Beyondblue topic distraction and variety
also google YouTube Prem Rawat Maharaji videos
You deserve love and respect.
As your child waits for you
there is still the other two
coloured ribbons fill their hidden pain
Memories still there of their daisy chains
And one day you cradle her again
until then you must refrain
A space in your heart reserved for her
You look inside it’s just a blurr
But be there for them the other two
The best mum in the world is beautiful too....