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Topic: Escape or survive a loveless marriage?

  1. CathyC
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    30 August 2019

    I'm 45 and my husband is 49. We've been married 11 years, with two kids aged 8 and 6. We haven’t had sex in more than 6 years. We’ve slept in separate beds for at least 5 years. There is zero affection or physical contact. (Before we had kids, no real issues.)
    Over the years I have tried to address this many times. My husband was diagnosed with depression and low testosterone, but stopped taking his medication as he insisted it didn’t work. I’m not sure if he is still depressed - he seems content to live in this loveless and sexless marriage.
    I begged him to try counselling, which he did for a few sessions about 2 years ago. Then I joined for 2 sessions - before he refused to go back. He didn't tell me - he just didn’t go back, despite me asking him to go several times. In the sessions I attended, he asked me not to nag him about our relationship and give him space. I did this and nothing happened. He has never once in all these years instigated a discussion of these issues.
    At least on three occasions, having lost patience, I told him I wanted a divorce. He just says ok, then jumps into action, looking for somewhere to rent, etc. After me venting, he agrees to couples counselling - but never goes through with it. He just carries on as usual until the next time I get angry or upset.

    Apart from this, he has not lifted a finger to save our marriage. He just says we should stay together ‘for the kids’. I really don’t matter to him at all. In my darkest moments I feel he also wants to stay together because I brought a lot more into the marriage financially (he had nothing).

    I can barely stand to be in the same room as him now and avoid conversation. It’s hard to describe just how humiliating and lonely it’s been. He knows I’m very unhappy, but never asks me about it. Instead, he commonly treats me with disdain, rolling his eyes or dismissing anything I say. The therapist even pulled him up on this, but he doesn’t get it. If I raise I’m unhappy in any way whatsoever, he’ll turn away, raise his hand up to motion me to stop speaking and yell, ‘Get a divorce then.’

    I'm being forced to accept this loveless, sexless marriage - or else. I’m heartbroken because I really wanted my kids to have a stable, ‘normal’ family life. I never wanted a divorce, but what choice do I have? How do people stay married just ‘for the kids’?
    I’m so very lonely and tired of keeping up appearances. I’ve kept all of this to myself all these years and it has truly become unbearable.

  2. jax_in_my_heart
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    30 August 2019 in reply to CathyC

    Hi Cathy

    I can really hear the heartbreak in your post, and I feel so sad for you.

    The only insight I can give you is from my own experience, which is that sometimes men will do anything to end a relationship, other than actually ending it. From his reactions to you wanting a divorce, through to his everyday behaviour and the lack of intimacy, everything suggests he wants to end the relationship, but simply hasn't got the wherewithal to do it himself, and is trying to give you the ammunition to do it for him. It's the coward's way out.

    It sounds like you desperately want your marriage to be a success, but are very frustrated by his behaviour. I have been there many times myself. At some point, we do need to accept that we can't change the people we are in a relationship with, or control the situation, but only be in control of our own actions. It sounds like you want to be in a happy loving marriage with your husband, but he does not share this ambition. And unfortunately, it does really take two people to want the same thing when it comes to having a successful marriage.

    If you will forgive me for being exceptionally blunt, it sounds like he's telling you what he wants (without having the courage to come out and say it) but it's not the answer you want, so you're refusing to hear it.

    I don't know what the future will hold for you, or what decisions you will make, but I hope you find the happiness that you deserve.

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  3. CathyC
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    30 August 2019 in reply to jax_in_my_heart

    Thank you so much, Jax. I really appreciate you being so honest with me. I have put the same thing to him on a number of occasions; that he wants me to be the one to end it, so I come out of this as the bad guy. And you can guarantee my mother will be the first to lay the blame at my feet for destroying my kids’ lives. I’m dreading it. She thinks he’s wonderful. But I guess I’m going to need to be a lot stronger than that to tackle what’s to come! I’m so grateful for you taking the time and care to respond to me.

  4. Farfaraway
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    30 August 2019 in reply to CathyC

    Wow, amazing insight for me as I’m going through similar things/ thoughts to you, though net as bad!

    Seriously, and honestly why do you bother? We get one crack at this life, so get out there and live it. Your kids will be fine, my parents got divorced when I was 4 and I survived.

    What you describe is misery, how would leaving that be worse?

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  5. CathyC
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    31 August 2019 in reply to Farfaraway

    Thanks Farfaraway, it’s a good question! I guess originally I felt I wanted to support my husband in his struggles with depression. ‘For better and for worse’ and all that. His depression was really bad for a year or so. He was actually a great partner before. I thought at some stage he might appreciate it and put in some effort again. But mostly because of my children. My original post probably makes me sound weak and a pushover; in real life I am usually far from that - and these years have been characterised by a cycle of me patiently waiting for or suggesting change, losing hope, getting angry, then exploding. So I can’t say I’ve always behaved in the right way. But I know I don’t deserve this misery, as you put it. Thanks so much for your message - it’s given me much to think about.

  6. geoff
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    31 August 2019 in reply to CathyC

    Hello Cathy, and a warm welcome to the forums.

    I am really sorry to hear about your situation and for once I have deleted all of what I have written down, because I can relate to your story as unfortunately, pretty well, the same happened to my 25 year marriage.

    My deepest feeling of sorrow reminds me so much of what happened, but do believe that for you to gain some happiness and the love you are wanting is to part your ways.

    Your own health and enjoyment is of prime concern, you need to be healthy and now you're not and maybe there could be a chance where you can still communicate with each other, that's what my ex and I do.

    I haven't been much help but keep going on, except this is your thread and not mine.

    Best wishes.

    Geoff.

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  7. jax_in_my_heart
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    31 August 2019 in reply to CathyC

    I'm glad my experience has helped in some small way Cathy. It is very hard to leave a marriage, no matter how miserable you are, because it is something you invested hope, time and love into, and you have to let that go, and it hurts. Having said that, there is hope for a better life once it is done, and happiness either by yourself or with someone else, with whom you could potentially have that happy marriage you wanted.

    I think Farfaraway is right, divorce will not scar your kids. What scars them is rage, resentment, arguments, and hurt. And sometimes we need to be a role model - when your kids are young adults, would you want them to feel they had no choice but to stay in a loveless relationship, or have the courage to go find their happiness?

    People might judge, or decide it's your fault; but should you live a life of misery in fear of their casual thoughts and opinions? What will you wish you would have done 20 years from now, or when you're on your deathbed? Sometimes we need to let people have their opinions and not worry about them, even our families, and in return we live our lives that little bit more happily. And what have you got to be ashamed about? Stand tall, throw your head back, and declare that you are a strong woman who deserves to be happy, and you will not put up with a life of misery, and if they were really your friend or family, why would they expect you to.

    If you do decide to leave, be smart and go see a lawyer and a financial advisor first. Work out budgets, money, child support, care arrangements, accommodation. I would also suggest a counsellor to work through emotional issues you will experience, it is good to work through them with a professional. Line your ducks up first, and it will benefit you and your children later on. You might not be able to afford as much, but we get too caught up in possessions anyway, love and happiness is what matters.

    I hope you find your happiness, no matter what it looks like!

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  8. geoff
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    31 August 2019 in reply to jax_in_my_heart

    Hi Cathy, I do know from experience that it's much better to have 2 kids who are happy if the parents are divorced, they can visit who they want to in a jovial mood, rather than when the parents are together but not talking or arguing.

    'Kids of divorce show no lasting negative effects on their grades or social skills, life satisfaction or self-esteem and they benefit from emotionally stable parents.'

    There are decisions you might have to make.

    Take care.

    Geoff.

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  9. CathyC
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    31 August 2019 in reply to geoff

    Thank you, Geoff. No need to worry about hijacking this thread; any shared experiences make me feel less alone, I can assure you. It was amazing to wake up to these messages this morning. I’ve been quite emotional about it all day. That you don’t know me, but have taken time out to help me, is really something. Maybe I need to rethink divorce being the end of the world...especially as we are not exactly modelling a good marriage for our kids.

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  10. CathyC
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    31 August 2019 in reply to jax_in_my_heart
    Thank you, Jax. Your words hit home. I’ve been scared to let go of my vision of how things should be. I should dream a new dream. And you are right, I shouldn’t be held back because I’m scared of what other people will think. I teach my kids that, so I should walk the talk. I will start to line my ducks up! I can see that if I leave, I need to be efficient and able to hold it together. That will hopefully help assure my kids that things will be ok. I can’t tell you how grateful I am for your help, it means a lot. Thank you.
  11. grt123
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    1 September 2019 in reply to CathyC

    I separated from a man I had been married to for 30 years. Our decline had been so pernicious I hadn't even realised how dysfunctional and full of hate our relationship had become.

    I recall one night getting up simply to get a glass of water and he screamed at me to go back to bed - which I duly did, without responding or getting upset. I was like a zombie. It's bizarre to me now that that was my normal and I let a man treat me that way.

    Like everything in our lives I had to facilitate our separation. Year's of sitting on his bum had rendered him incapable of doing anything for himself. I even did a week's shopping and put it in his fridge and hung his clothes in his wardrobe. He acted like a teenager moving into their first flat - jubilant at the thought of life without a 'nagging wife' spoiling his fun. But that's not how it worked out for him. Without the safety net I provided he spiralled - but that's a whole other story.

    For me on the other hand it's felt like I've stepped into the light. I didn't realise how bad things were until I was free. I've bought new clothes and too many shoes. I rearranged the furniture and threw out boxes of junk - I don't know where I got the energy but I've channelled it well. I eat what I want and I can bloody well get up and get a glass of water anytime I like!

    My regret is that I didn't do it sooner but I think it was a process that needed to play out until I was ready. But now that it has, I feel great and so can you.

    Wishing you luck!

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  12. CathyC
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    1 September 2019 in reply to grt123

    grt123, thank you for sharing your story. It does sneak up on you and I try and think of the moment when the love disappeared completely. I don’t know which reasons were legitimate and which were just excuses. I guess it doesn’t really matter now. I suspect my husband may be similar to your ex, as when we discussed divorce previously he kept asking questions like ‘so what am I going to do about x, y, z’. I’m so glad you’ve managed to turn things around and enjoy life again - after 30 years is incredible. I can’t remember the last time I felt truly happy, to be honest. I’ve just been blocking things out and then every couple of months I get angry and upset. This time feels a bit different though; i feel like I am grieving. I don’t think there’s anything left to say to my husband. I’ve repeated my request for counselling quite a few times now, so it’s apparent it’s being ignored. I have noticed he’s been doing a bit more around the house, because he’s realised I’m quite sad. But I believe that’s because he wants the facade to continue. He certainly won’t ask me what’s up or address the elephant in the room. He wants to be able to see his kids all the time. He wants his kids to have a ‘normal’ family and to present this to the world and he wants a nice lifestyle. He regards doing these practical things as ‘trying’, I know that. And no doubt I don’t act like I appreciate them. Because after all this time, I really don’t. I used to feel sorry for him that he was trying, just in the wrong way - but now I feel his motivation is just to continue the status quo, not to actually resume any kind of normal relationship. It must be so nice grt123 to have your own place where you can feel comfortable and just be yourself. I will keep it in my mind!

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  13. Sophie225
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    10 September 2019

    HI CathyC.

    Thank you for sharing your story and your feelings. I have found that this is a great forum and has helped me to realise that I am not on my own in a loveless marriage either. Like you I am in my mid forties, my husband is 53, we have been married for 25 years and I have been so unhappy for years. It is only recently that I have realised what has been happening to me for many years, which is emotional abuse. Sounds similar to grt123 with some of the many examples that I have. Anyway, if it helps, you are not alone. I am working through a plan to exit my marriage which I know will be painful but after 30 years of looking after him and bringing up 2 kids (who are young adults now) I need to think about myself. I have been undecided for at least 18 months, living in limbo, but there seem to be more and more incidents happening. I am tired of living on eggshells, not able to see or do anything without getting permission, and being told what I can buy (even though I earn more).

    Lets see how we all get on over the coming months. My plan is that by the end of February I will be able to put the house up for sale, but it may happen sooner than that if the incidents continue.

    Keep us informed of your progress x

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  14. Cazza65
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    10 September 2019
    Hi, I’m also experiencing difficulties/unhappiness in my marriage. We have been together since I was 17 (im now 53) & married over 30 years. I feel trapped ..... too scared to leave but don’t want to stay 🙄 I’ve never been on my own before & it’s seems very daunting & overwhelming to make the move. I’m not attracted to him anymore & I am craving love & attention & intimacy. Our kids are 26 & 21 still living at home & they will be devastated along with friends, but I guess I need to put myself first. Never had to budget or deal with finances. It all seems too hard but I’m so unhappy ! Just need some advice please. Thanks
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  15. geoff
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    11 September 2019 in reply to Cazza65

    Hello Cazza, and those above, and very sorry for how you are feeling.

    Can I say that your children maybe upset, but how do they feel now, in the long run, they and you yourself will be much happier, because it's better to have separate parents who are much happier than two who are living together and loathing it.

    Your kids are adults and will adjust to the change, don't worry about them, you come first, find the love you're craving for, you will adapt to the finances and in fact, that's what could be one thing that's been out of control.

    We will help you to get organised if you want, plus your kids may also chip in and know what to do, but please get back to us.

    Take care.

    Geoff.

  16. Cazza65
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    11 September 2019 in reply to geoff

    Hi Geoff, thank you for your reply & also for your encouragement & understanding I’m very appreciative.

    I’ve been struggling with my depression & more anxiety actually so it’s more difficult to make a logical decision with the way my mind is ATM. The ‘what ifs’ are taking over .... what if I don’t cope on my own, what if I’m lonely, what if I don’t meet a new man. It’s all soooo overwhelming & daunting it makes me feel sick 😥

    Also, I’m so very ashamed & feel so very guilty as I have had an affair. I know it’s very wrong & I’m not sure I should reveal that to the readers here 🤭 but I just needed to get that off my chest & vent. The craving for attention, care, love, intimacy was extremely strong. I still think about the guy I had the affair with, we had a good connection but I know I need to forget him.

    Hope you don’t judge me 😥 I’m also sorry if I’ve revealed too much about my life.

    Regards,

    Carolyn

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  17. CathyC
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    11 September 2019 in reply to Sophie225

    Hi Sophie,

    Thank you for your message yesterday; I was feeling pretty low and it came at the right time! I’m finding it almost impossible to motivate myself to get things done at the moment. I also want a plan - but I can’t seem to push myself into action. I did do something today, however - I went and spoke to a psychologist. I’m pretty exhausted from it, but I’m hoping it will help. I’ve kept all this to myself for so long that I’m not sure what is acceptable or unacceptable anymore.

    One question, if you don’t mind - why do you think your husband has stayed in the marriage? Has he ever shown any interest in improving things? Does he know that you are unhappy? Being this disconnected is intolerable to me and I just don’t understand why it isn’t for my husband. Except that it’s just easier financially and practically to stay.

    Please keep in touch, it’s a great comfort to know I’m not alone.

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  18. Cazza65
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    11 September 2019 in reply to CathyC

    Hi Cathy, I’ve been reading your posts with interest & sadness. I’m so sorry you are having a rough time. I’m in a similar situation .....loveless, no sex, no intimacy marriage 😥 I can understand how you feel & want you to know you aren’t alone. Try to remain positive & hopeful as that’s what keeps me going & I know somehow things will work out 👍 I’m feeling daunted, scared, nervous, anxious about separating too but it’s all about our own journey in life, no one else’s & we have to make the most of it as we only get one shot at it! It’s so important to be happy. Also remember - you are doing the best you can in a difficult situation & don’t let any one put you down. Hang in there

    cheers

    Carolyn 😃

  19. CathyC
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    12 September 2019 in reply to Cazza65

    Hello Cazza,

    Thank you so much for your messages of support and I’m so sorry you are going through similar. I started a reply to you yesterday, but ran out of time to finish it. I wanted to share with you something someone told me when I was a teenager about ‘what if’ questions - and that is to always answer them. Sounds too simple, but I find it works for me. So ‘what if’ you’ve never managed your finances? As Geoff said, you’ll just have to learn. ‘What if’ you never meet anyone else? Well, for me, living alone would be better than this - at least I’d feel comfortable in my own home. And I don’t know about you, but much of my loneliness stems from living this ‘pretend’ marriage, as I avoid social events where I have to keep up appearances.

    I completely understand why you had an affair. If anyone showed me any attention I’d have a very tough time resisting it, my need for any kind of affection feels overwhelming.

    Wishing you all the best and please keep us updated.

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  20. Cazza65
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    12 September 2019 in reply to CathyC

    Hi Cathy, wow thank you so much for your message! That’s actually made me feel better already 😊 I really appreciate you replying to me. I felt like I was the only one experiencing this sadness, unhappiness but since reading some posts on here & listening to other people I truly realise I am not alone.

    What if’s answers were helpful thank you. A lot of my other what ifs (usually experienced only while I’m depressed) are a bit deeper eg what if my son died in a car accident & what if I lose my job ..... I try & rationalise they with the probability of that happening is low.

    look after yourself & feel free to chat anytime, I’m here. Things will get better.

    kind regards,

    Cazza

  21. Sophie225
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    13 September 2019 in reply to Cazza65

    Hi Cazza

    I just wanted to let you know that I am in a very similar position to you, and I completely understand about the affair. I too have done the same, after so long without any love, attention, physical needs being met, we can't carry on forever in the same position. I'm not proud of it (its over now) but it has actually helped to open my eyes to how unhappy I have been for so long.

    Keep us informed of how you are getting on, as it sounds like you, CathyC and I are all very similar!

    x

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  22. Sophie225
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    13 September 2019 in reply to CathyC

    Hi Cathy,

    I know exactly what you mean about being unable to motivate yourself - even though you know you need to. Its so difficult, but if you chip away at things bit at a time its amazing what you can achieve without even realising it!

    I saw a therapist a couple of times but I spent most of the time crying and I'm not sure that I got much out of it, but I do feel like I might try again, so I hope it helps you.

    To be honest, I have told my husband that I am not in love with him about 18 months ago, but he just seems to ignore how unhappy I clearly am and carry on regardless. Every so often he says to me 'you know you love me deep down'. So he definitely knows something is not right. If I am honest, and in my experience, its the women who have the balls in any relationship. We're the ones who seem to make the change, and the men seem ok to just plod on. Not sure if you have the same experience?

    Keep in touch x

  23. Cazza65
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    14 September 2019 in reply to Sophie225

    Hi Sophie, thank you so much for your message, much appreciated. It’s comforting to know that I’m not alone. The guilt I feel about my affair does get to me though (I’ve actually had a few 🤔). I feel so ashamed & bad about them but I have to somehow forgive myself. I feel so trapped in my marriage - too scared to separate but not happy about staying. It’s a massive decision to make the move especially after being together for SO long.

    Feel free to message me anytime I’m all ears & hope I can help you in some way. These forums are so good for venting/talking about our troubles. Thanks again.

    Cheers,

    Cazza 😊 x

  24. Sophie225
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    14 September 2019 in reply to Cazza65

    Hi Cazza

    actuslly I’ve had a few as well. Don’t seem to be able to stop myself now I know that some men do find me attractive. Honestly I had no clue that anyone rose would be interested but it’s certainly opened my eyes! I have come to the conclusion that after thinking about separating many times over the years I’m only really in a position to now and if I don’t I think I will regret it later. He’s so controlling I am looking forward to being able to make my own decisions. I’m quite a confident person when I’m not with him, but when I’m with him I have to basically do as I’m told. Not the way I want to live that’s for sure.

    how will you be for money if you split up? Can u take care of yourself?

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  25. Cazza65
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    14 September 2019 in reply to Sophie225

    Hi Sophie,

    Yes, I agree it’s very flattering when another guy finds you sexy & attractive 😊 I’m craving the attention, love, intimacy, compliments. With so many social platforms online it’s quits easy to meet other men. Although, I know it’s not right but we do have our needs 😏

    Not sure how I will go on my own as I only work 3 days a week. Haven’t looked into the nitty gritty of finances as I’ve never had to, my husband pays all the bills but I guess I will have to learn! He is in a really good Super scheme so I guess eventually I will get 1/2 of that & our house would sell at a very high price.

    I’m just so scared of the unknown & don’t cope well with change & we have been together since I was 17 (I’m now 53). How will you go financially ? My kids will be devastated although they are 26 & 21. Have you any children, couldn’t remember? 

    Kind regards,

    Cazza x

  26. Sophie225
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    15 September 2019 in reply to Cazza65

    Hi Cazza

    yes I have 2 kids in their early 20s who still live with us.

    Its funny but I pay all the bills and do all the paperwork, tax returns, insurances etc in our house, yet I have to get permission to buy anything. Suppose I’ve done it for so long he expects it now. He likes to act like the big man, you should hear some of the things he says to our friends 😤

    i can definitely help you with how to manage finances, it’s much easier than you think 😊

    I have a good job myself but that’s the other thing that I am worried about and the reason why I haven’t split up with him yet as I need to find another job. My contract will be coming to an end soon and I need to be financially secure to buy another house.

    I have regular physio on my neck and top of my back as I get so tense trying to deal with everything, most of which he would never understand so I’ve given up trying to explain now.

    Whereabouts are you in Oz?

  27. Cazza65
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    15 September 2019 in reply to Sophie225

    Hi Sophie,

    We are in a very similar situation & our kids seem around the same age. I’m 53. I agree, we have to be financially secure & to separate it takes a bit of planning too. Can you rent for a bit rather than buy? Will you sell the house you are in with your family? My kids live at home too. I really don’t want to work full time & love my part time job so I’m hoping I can somehow afford to rent in my 3 day/week job 🤔

    I don’t get any compliments about at all about the way i look at all!! He is so bloody negative too & that really gets me down. He is not a good communicator, I think I can talk to strangers better.

    Nice to have this conversation between us. Also I’m in SA where are you?

    cheers

    Cazza x

  28. Sophie225
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    17 September 2019 in reply to Cazza65

    HI Cazza

    We will have to sell our house, as I can't quite afford it on my own. We should both come out with a decent amount to set us up separately though. I could rent for a while, just depends whats on the market at the time I suppose.

    Yes my husband likes to make little comments all the time about how I look. I am a bit overweight again now. I lost 15 kg's around 18 months ago and felt and looked fantastic, he kept saying to the kids that I think I'm a supermodel because I've lost a bit of weight. Not nice. Anyway I've put most of it back on again now as my confidence has been shaken again but once I get into my determined mode I will enjoy the exercise to get it off again!

    I am in WA. Love it here, very occasionally I might visit SA so I'll let you know if I do!

    Hows your weekend been?

    I have now found a lump in one of my breasts which I feel quite sick about, so going to the doctors later today :(

  29. Cazza65
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    17 September 2019 in reply to Sophie225

    Hi Sophie,

    These husbands know how to strip us of our confidence 🙄 I’ve NEVER received many compliments at all & I get very sad when friends of ours compliment each other when we are out with them or he puts his arm around her, I feel so sad. I have to ask ‘do I look ok in this’ etc etc & it’s not like I don’t compliment him as I do ! I’ve always instigated sex as well. He has a low libido but never wanted to see Dr to try & improve things.

    WA is lovely, we went to Perth & Margaret River a few years ago. Yes if you are ever in Adelaide would LOVE to catch up. Feel as though we would get on very well, lots in common already ! Lol

    Try not to panic about the lump, I know it’s difficult but it might not be anything to worry about & then you have expended all that energy on worry for nothing! I know it’s easier said than done 😏

    Take care & look forward to hearing from you soon.

    kind regards,

    Cazza

  30. Sophie225
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    18 September 2019 in reply to Cazza65

    HI Cazza

    Thats so funny, my sex life with my husband has been non existent for a while now as well. Doesn't help I suppose that I don't fancy him anymore :( And yes I am the same, I look at other couples holding hands and I've never had anything even simple like that to show affection, even though I've tried with him :(

    Yes certainly sounds like we have a lot in common already! Just don't want to hijack Cathy's post as she is also in a similar situation.

    I have a scan on Friday for the lump, looks like I might know more next week but I'm not as concerned now that I saw the doctor yesterday :)

    I've had all sorts of thoughts running through my head, such as OMG I will have to stay with my husband while I fight it, and I will be stuck with him for a long time. But anyway lets see what happens...

    So at the moment I have a health issue I am dealing with, I am trying to finish a course to get a qualification but only have until the end of September to complete it, my marriage is falling apart and I am trying to work through a plan to exit, my job is unstable so I am looking for another one urgently as the pressure (and basically bullying) is unbelievable, and I am trying not to let another man distract me while I deal with it all at present! Just an average day for me lol

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